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well, I can now begin to understand how chelsa feels about certain issues. We actually have a lot in common, given the circumstances..Yea, life can be so boring w/ out any thing to look forward to everyday. I guess the only thing to look forward to in my life would be life itself. Death is very unexpected, no one knows exactly when it strikes, but how can one actually live life to the fullest... People say that one must just follow their instincts, and don't care what anyone else thinks. Well, in my case I can't make it happen. I've met very few people who can just ignore everyone else, and "Live life to it's fullest" Most people do listen to what other people think, and do what others want. See I actually have trouble thinking on my own, not caring what others think. Anyone who knows me, knows for a fact that I do care. I just can't help it. See when your about 15 you can't really do anything remarkable. Sure there are cases when people do, but I'm not one of the few. I just think of myself to be average, nobody different. I just like to blend in. I guess maybe that's why I don't really care about grades now. As far as that I'm not sure. I just want a routine, friend's who care about what happens to me in my life. Don't know if I have to many of those. Can maybe think of three... Two of which I talk to very seldom now... WEll, shit, hopefully I'll be gone from the 15th to the 1st of aug. or around there, cause I don't like sitting around and doing nothing, with people I care about. See I'm losing them one by one, and I don't realize until it's too late... Justin'