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i am so fucking annoyed. i never thought my mom would try to change me, but she is. all day today, shes been against everything i like. for example, i was listening to a song by clutch, not loud at all, and she tells me to turn it off. i asked why and she said that it sounded gothic.
one: clutch is anything but gothic, its just a normal person singing along with normal rock music
two: even if they were gothic, whats bad about that?
three: why should i have to turn off music just because she doesnt like it?
another example.. i was sitting down, thinking and staring at my belt (randomly). she walked up to me and was like "what are you staring at?". so i told her my belt. and she said i was 'weird', that i was acting 'weird'. she thought i was staring lower than that i guess.. seriously, shes trying to find every way to label me as a psycho whore slut.
and she just has to remind me everyday that i need to be more outgoing.. as if she thinks thats gonna make it happen. thats the only thing thats making it all worse. and just by looking at my face, somehow she starts to talk about how i need to go to a dermatologist, or she starts asking me if i use my medicine 'faithfully'. even though i really dont think my face is that bad anymore.
i mean, i can see this all from a girly-girl's point of view: loud angry screamy music, black clothes.. thats all my mom thinks of me. that im gothic. im not fucking gothic. get over it, i dont like whats 'in' anymore. i dont like hit music anymore. i dont like those pretty cheerful colors anymore.
sometimes i get so surprised over the fact that i changed so much from last year. i was so clueless about what i like now. i always thought of it from the girly-girl point of view. i guess i just got tired of liking what everyone else is into. i think its fun to like stuff that only a small group of people like.
but thats just me.
one: clutch is anything but gothic, its just a normal person singing along with normal rock music
two: even if they were gothic, whats bad about that?
three: why should i have to turn off music just because she doesnt like it?
another example.. i was sitting down, thinking and staring at my belt (randomly). she walked up to me and was like "what are you staring at?". so i told her my belt. and she said i was 'weird', that i was acting 'weird'. she thought i was staring lower than that i guess.. seriously, shes trying to find every way to label me as a psycho whore slut.
and she just has to remind me everyday that i need to be more outgoing.. as if she thinks thats gonna make it happen. thats the only thing thats making it all worse. and just by looking at my face, somehow she starts to talk about how i need to go to a dermatologist, or she starts asking me if i use my medicine 'faithfully'. even though i really dont think my face is that bad anymore.
i mean, i can see this all from a girly-girl's point of view: loud angry screamy music, black clothes.. thats all my mom thinks of me. that im gothic. im not fucking gothic. get over it, i dont like whats 'in' anymore. i dont like hit music anymore. i dont like those pretty cheerful colors anymore.
sometimes i get so surprised over the fact that i changed so much from last year. i was so clueless about what i like now. i always thought of it from the girly-girl point of view. i guess i just got tired of liking what everyone else is into. i think its fun to like stuff that only a small group of people like.
but thats just me.