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It's been a rough week, or at least seemingly so...I returned to campus Monday night. I guess this past week has just felt long and icky because of the transition back to school after being in a completely different env for five days, as well as feeling crummy but going to class anyway and still doing as much as possible outside in terms of work because it's Mount Holyoke and the final exam period is drawing near. I probably wrote this already but whatever - Being back at school is a relief. Although being at home was nice, I can't help but feel stifled whenever I'm there for more than a few days. I don't have any sort of outlet there. at all. I can't talk about my schoolwork with my parents or my sister for various reasons beyond my control. It sucks because that's a huge part of what I identify with and am passionate about - and they just don't understand. I can't talk about a paper with anyone in my family. Despite the fact that everyone is supportive, I still feel saddened and frustrated knowing that I can't share it with them and that they can't see it in me. My parents just tell me that I should not take school so seriously because everything is ok just as long as I finish, and don't stress yourself out bla bla bla don't take any more philosophy classes bla bla bla bla bla. My sister just insults whatever I'm reading ("ooooh god that looks so boring. or else adopts the viewpoint of her boyfriend who has an inferiority complex about not finishing art school/college, and then it turns out that I am a snob, arrogant, and a know-it-all for talking about school) And aside from that (or maybe because of that) I just feel as though I don't belong in Washington state. It's not a matter of exclusion. The environment just doesn't feel right to me. The air is different, the people are different....it's just not New England. And I really love New England - I can see myself living on this coast and being happy. But, Washington state...I would be miserable. I feel like my soul and my little heart would just whither away there. But anyways....
Perhaps it was also this damn virus that put a huge damper on the break. I didn't sleep very much at all because the coughing and congestion and ear infection and fever kept up, though in a delirious and cranky sort of way. So I couldn't dig into the papers that I've been working on or get reading finished even though I wanted to...and it wasn't even just finishing the assignments and getting from point A to point B. My heart was set on enjoying the material, but my body was just saying no no no. Anyway, each day I'm feeling a little better because my doc at home prescribed stronger anti-biotics and I'm draining as much mucus out of my nose as is possible throughout the day. lovely, eh. My voice is slowly getting back to normal, which is nice because I've nearly forgotten what I even sound like. Though, I've gotten several comments from people who say they like my voice all scratchy like this. hehehe ;) Anyways, I can breathe now both intellectually and physically now that I'm back at school. Big sigh of relief. BIG.
Last night I read philosophy for 7 hours straight. And it was absolutely wonderful. I just looked up and it was 6:45 am all of a sudden. Holy jesus, it was fun. Though, the only drawback was that I went and skipped a whole night of sleep and got about 1.5 hours before whipping up a draft of a paper and then meeting with a prof. to start my day. (and no, I do not take speed or aderol or any other drug that fucks up your mind) Afterwards I had lunch with the chickies in blanchard and then headed across the street to the post office to send in my senior portrait stuff to my mother.
THe only thing is that when I got there, I realized that I didn't know my parent's address (they moved last year) so basically that errand went to shit. I still have to fix my timesheet in the anthro department because the secretary emailed me about how the payroll dept. needs it on time. It's about three weeks late. I think the secretary might be a little pissed, and I'm sure the payroll dept. is going to call with some grating complaint. ick. I just keep forgetting because getting paid seems like a distant and unnecessary thing...at least at this point in my life. But yeah, still gotta take care of that. I ought to just go on Monday and get it over with. ah that damn bubble sheet.
So after that errand-type junk, I came back here and went up to maya's to figure out something fun to do - just to get rid of that blah feeling and have a break from campus. We took the pvta to amherst and had a good time just walking around the town. The timing was perfect because there was some sort of Maple Parade festival thing held by the town, which made the block seem so warm and festive. The chamber of commerce was sponsoring some sort of choir group, so there were people singing and selling cider near the street. And the lights - beautiful!! We also saw the little parade that they had to celebrate the holiday season - umass marching band, santa claus on a fire engine, and people lining the sidewalks being cheerful and supportive. really nice. :) It was bitter cold outside so we went to souper bowl for din (which was wonderful by the way - that place is so cute!) and the big discovery of the night da dum da dum: BBUBBLE TEA!!!! They have bubble tea!!!!! and it is GOooooodoOOOOOood. yurmy yurmy. So yes, we shall be going back there at some point in the future. yay! finally a place that sells bubble tea!! I would otherwise have to wait until I was at home or in Boston for boba. ahhh, tapioca balls. green tea. yurmy. then quick stop at cvs and on the bus again.
Came back, and the tv rooms were all noisy or filled so we ran sans coats and shoes to skinner where we watched America's Top Model in the IR lounge. hehe, it's quite cozy. Skinner is indeed my favorite academic building on campus, except for the landing on the ground floor which is creepy as hell at night.
Anyway, it is 3:09 am and I need sleep. Apologies for the terrible grammar and god-awful writing. I'll be coherent and sufficiently awake tomorrow, most likely. ;) end post.
Perhaps it was also this damn virus that put a huge damper on the break. I didn't sleep very much at all because the coughing and congestion and ear infection and fever kept up, though in a delirious and cranky sort of way. So I couldn't dig into the papers that I've been working on or get reading finished even though I wanted to...and it wasn't even just finishing the assignments and getting from point A to point B. My heart was set on enjoying the material, but my body was just saying no no no. Anyway, each day I'm feeling a little better because my doc at home prescribed stronger anti-biotics and I'm draining as much mucus out of my nose as is possible throughout the day. lovely, eh. My voice is slowly getting back to normal, which is nice because I've nearly forgotten what I even sound like. Though, I've gotten several comments from people who say they like my voice all scratchy like this. hehehe ;) Anyways, I can breathe now both intellectually and physically now that I'm back at school. Big sigh of relief. BIG.
Last night I read philosophy for 7 hours straight. And it was absolutely wonderful. I just looked up and it was 6:45 am all of a sudden. Holy jesus, it was fun. Though, the only drawback was that I went and skipped a whole night of sleep and got about 1.5 hours before whipping up a draft of a paper and then meeting with a prof. to start my day. (and no, I do not take speed or aderol or any other drug that fucks up your mind) Afterwards I had lunch with the chickies in blanchard and then headed across the street to the post office to send in my senior portrait stuff to my mother.
THe only thing is that when I got there, I realized that I didn't know my parent's address (they moved last year) so basically that errand went to shit. I still have to fix my timesheet in the anthro department because the secretary emailed me about how the payroll dept. needs it on time. It's about three weeks late. I think the secretary might be a little pissed, and I'm sure the payroll dept. is going to call with some grating complaint. ick. I just keep forgetting because getting paid seems like a distant and unnecessary thing...at least at this point in my life. But yeah, still gotta take care of that. I ought to just go on Monday and get it over with. ah that damn bubble sheet.
So after that errand-type junk, I came back here and went up to maya's to figure out something fun to do - just to get rid of that blah feeling and have a break from campus. We took the pvta to amherst and had a good time just walking around the town. The timing was perfect because there was some sort of Maple Parade festival thing held by the town, which made the block seem so warm and festive. The chamber of commerce was sponsoring some sort of choir group, so there were people singing and selling cider near the street. And the lights - beautiful!! We also saw the little parade that they had to celebrate the holiday season - umass marching band, santa claus on a fire engine, and people lining the sidewalks being cheerful and supportive. really nice. :) It was bitter cold outside so we went to souper bowl for din (which was wonderful by the way - that place is so cute!) and the big discovery of the night da dum da dum: BBUBBLE TEA!!!! They have bubble tea!!!!! and it is GOooooodoOOOOOood. yurmy yurmy. So yes, we shall be going back there at some point in the future. yay! finally a place that sells bubble tea!! I would otherwise have to wait until I was at home or in Boston for boba. ahhh, tapioca balls. green tea. yurmy. then quick stop at cvs and on the bus again.
Came back, and the tv rooms were all noisy or filled so we ran sans coats and shoes to skinner where we watched America's Top Model in the IR lounge. hehe, it's quite cozy. Skinner is indeed my favorite academic building on campus, except for the landing on the ground floor which is creepy as hell at night.
Anyway, it is 3:09 am and I need sleep. Apologies for the terrible grammar and god-awful writing. I'll be coherent and sufficiently awake tomorrow, most likely. ;) end post.