plastic dreams
So it's already October. New month, new start, new attitude, new high (in terms of hardcore muggery?)
As much as I said I'll stop moping and get on with life, I can't. Because every single paper has been bad. (i am gonna omit vulgarities or there will be plenty) I can't say I didn't expect this but I didn't think it'd be this bad, y'know? I have no unsurmountable expectations like straight As which many others harbour, but i can't even meet my considerably low expectations? Look at my grades, true reflection of shittiness, really. Ha ha ha my life is a joke, I am a joke. Even GP failed me, i haven't seen my percentile neither do i wish to see my it because i am convinced it dropped as in the case of ct2. Really, no high hopes for my remaining unreturned scripts, only history, though.
I'm just really frustrated with myself. Back to that recurring inadequate phase, again.
I want to do well at the end of this all, not just get through this. So, full steam ahead. Even if I don't end up doing well, at least I tried.
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