Well i'll float on maybe would you understand?
Hmm hi, haven't been typing here in a while. Because all I really do is type a chunk and backspace the entire thing. But anyway, life is okay, I guess.
I'm just going through this endless phase. I've grown more positive recently, which is a good thing, but Friday just burst my bubble. It just pulled me out of my happy state and flung me back to square one. I just feel really dumb and inadequate but hey, what's new? Inadequacy is the one feeling I've constantly dealt with ever since I started JC life. They say hardwork would salvage things and it would pay off. But that doesn't seem like it's happening to me. Maybe I'm undeserving or maybe I haven't worked hard enough. But how much is sufficient. If one month isn't enough for me, how long do I really need and how long do I actually have on my hands. I don't know if I can face the great As in four months. I see people around me soaring while I remain static as ever. It's not as though I didn't try to pull myself out of this impasse, I did. But oh well, I'll not let myself sink into despair. I'll complain but I'll have faith.
There's hope for the hopeless.
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