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my birthday is soon. 13 days i suppose. give me happiness & ill be very grateful. you may even get a prize, like one of those rings that whistle when you blow into them. like you get in a cracker jack box. a smile will do, thank you. smiles make me happy.
ive found that i like being close to people. not just kennedy & monroe close, but kari&samantha&charlotte&miranda close. my best friend lives 1389740 miles away in fucking india [which makes me cry like a freaking sissy boy] & im starting to come to the realization that she may never come back [which makes me cry harder.] and i never see the other best friend because, well, shes got a boyfriend & apparently i missed a memo and having a boyfriend means that you suddenly fall off the planet & forget about all the people that you used to be close to.
i like parks. i like swings in parks. i like grass & sand & rocks on occasion. i need & want & im human. i can & will fuck up sometimes. please forgive me. again, im only human.
im lucky & i know this. im as appreciative as one person can be & thats all i have to give. i love my life, frustration & irritation just seems to drift sometimes.
ranting is good food. i enjoy it.
i love & miss you all. hope i hear from you soon. yes, you.
p, l & h-
jeska.