Stay together for the Kids
I think someone killed a buttload of skunk, because the entire Grand Blanc area reeks of that striped stinker.
"She's got sandy blonde hair..." I am BLONDE again (for the most part) and I got the haircut I wanted and I am so very happy with it. It was definately worth the two weeks I spent anticpating it.
i was so so so bored today. no one could/would do anything, but thankfully Sam called and invited me out for a rub down. And it was very much worth it. Ladies and Gentlemen, I would highly reccommend that you let her touch you. I feel noodley and relaxed, and that's a good thing.
I don't usually use this thing top pour out my innermost thoughts, fears, desires, etc., but I think it's nessicary tonight. I need to see how I am feeling written (typed) down for some reason.
My parents marriage is on the rocks again. Well, i don't think it's technically ever gotten off the rocks, and if so only for a little bit. Anyways, I don't actually know how long things have been bad, or how bad they even are sometimes. Growing up, I didn't have a clue in hell that things were not just perfect. But I am thankful for that. And now, most of me just wishes they would split up, if it would make them both happy. But I'm also afraid of alot of things...
I'm scared that if the split up, that my mom won't be okay. And even more scared that my dad will be just fine. Im afraid for my brother. I know I can constructively deal with whatever happens, but I think he bordering a line of being a screw up or being okay. I think that a divorce would push him over the edge in the wrong way. Im scared that drinking will take over both of them, and that my dad will eventually destroy himself, and not be there to be my kid's papa, or to walk me down the aisle. And i'm mostly scared that if that happens, I will be angry and bitter and not sad.
I really am more okay than I thought I'd be about all this. I guess I'm just past the point where I allow stuff like this to consume me. I know I will be okay, but i want everyone else to be more than okay. As angry and sad as they make me at times, I love my family more than anything. I just don't want things like a substance or two to ruin us.
I pray to God that my future family will never be destroyed but something that is so worth changing.
Good Night, Sarah
"She's got sandy blonde hair..." I am BLONDE again (for the most part) and I got the haircut I wanted and I am so very happy with it. It was definately worth the two weeks I spent anticpating it.
i was so so so bored today. no one could/would do anything, but thankfully Sam called and invited me out for a rub down. And it was very much worth it. Ladies and Gentlemen, I would highly reccommend that you let her touch you. I feel noodley and relaxed, and that's a good thing.
I don't usually use this thing top pour out my innermost thoughts, fears, desires, etc., but I think it's nessicary tonight. I need to see how I am feeling written (typed) down for some reason.
My parents marriage is on the rocks again. Well, i don't think it's technically ever gotten off the rocks, and if so only for a little bit. Anyways, I don't actually know how long things have been bad, or how bad they even are sometimes. Growing up, I didn't have a clue in hell that things were not just perfect. But I am thankful for that. And now, most of me just wishes they would split up, if it would make them both happy. But I'm also afraid of alot of things...
I'm scared that if the split up, that my mom won't be okay. And even more scared that my dad will be just fine. Im afraid for my brother. I know I can constructively deal with whatever happens, but I think he bordering a line of being a screw up or being okay. I think that a divorce would push him over the edge in the wrong way. Im scared that drinking will take over both of them, and that my dad will eventually destroy himself, and not be there to be my kid's papa, or to walk me down the aisle. And i'm mostly scared that if that happens, I will be angry and bitter and not sad.
I really am more okay than I thought I'd be about all this. I guess I'm just past the point where I allow stuff like this to consume me. I know I will be okay, but i want everyone else to be more than okay. As angry and sad as they make me at times, I love my family more than anything. I just don't want things like a substance or two to ruin us.
I pray to God that my future family will never be destroyed but something that is so worth changing.
Good Night, Sarah