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I am so inspired. Today is my birthday. How strange it is that I am only fourteen. I feel like I am thirty. It doesn't really feel like my birthday, though. I am so happy because for my birthday/christmas present from mis padres ('my parents' in case you can't put two and two together) I got this sweet black coat from Express. Casey, I have fallen in love with that store! Of course I never buy anything (If i were spending money, I couldn't afford anything), but I can still fantasize, can't i? I made one hundred and twenty dollars this weekend from babysitting Meg Hamilton and Caleb Salsman on a staff retreat on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. It was relaxing, except the food at the place was terrible (gave everyone bad gas, and was tougher on me since i have the most sensitive stomach) because it was all vegetarian food, which is fine, but they tried to make real food (like sausages, meatballs, eggs, etc) and didn't allow caffiene. If they had served authentic vegitarean food, it would've been awesome, but they just had to go all-out tofu (and who knows what else). It was funny because in the cabin that Chris Davis, Cecily & David, Pam Wilson, Nazim, and the Muses stayed in, there was lots of coffee, tea, beer, wine (drunk out of styrofoam cups- mom and dad had the class to bring two wine glasses), and lots of unhealthy snacks. I found out that when you hang out with dad and go on trips with him, he offers you beer (well, he offered me half of his big thing at a restaraunt, when he'd never do that at home) BTW, we stayed at the place that we went to Seek Justice last year (incase you remember, casey). Anyway, I said i was inspired in the beginning of this post, but then i never said why. I want to do so many things. My heart is in so many places. I want to be involved in the Ukraine stuff (mainly the sex trafficking area), helping the people in Darfur, reaching out to people here, rasing money for the Blood.Water thing (raising money to save people in Africa by getting them clean water - one dollar can provide one person with fresh water for like a year, or something - i can't remember), and i also want to travel all over the world. there are so many things i want to do. i am finding that i am such a hippie now. all i do is listen to Enya, Sufjan Stevens, and Sigur Ros (with occasional bits of the Shins and Coldplay, but to my astonishment, music just isn't the same high that it used to be for me. it's still one of the most important things in my life, but i thing i'm changing). I don't even care about people at school that much. I mean i have lots of friends, but none of them are people that you just 'click' with, and can tell everything, so i just talk to them at school, but it's not much deeper than that. The strange thing is that i am so okay with that. Wow, this is turning into a huge rant (I didn't go to school today). I've been thinking...I know, a danger sign...jk, but I've been thinking that I'm going to start a drive for money for the Blood.Water MIssion and see how much i can raise. I'll have a day on a saturday where i'll get a group of people to sort the money and roll the coins (If i have to do it alone, then so be it). I don't know...so much is changing, most of it for the better, and it's taken me some time to accept that. I am excited that there are only seventeen days until i leave this country...forever!!!! I wish...oh man, I should stop writing this. Well, what will be will be!