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[eleganceisdead]

Why do I always make stupid hasty decisions in my life?
Why do I never think things out?
Why do I decide that the best things and best decisions I can make involve me being alone?

I don't know
Maybe it is because I am a retard that strives for indifference and denial
I am not trying to be this whiny motherfucker
but why in the fuck must I make decisions that ultimately allow me to be alone.

xxx