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it's strange to think the funny little world i used to belong to no longer exists. i wonder what will happen to us all as we scatter? will jim follow hayley? will the ties that we forged be flexible enough to connect us over longer distances, around sharp corners, and in spite of the chaos outside? i admit that place was always in disorder, but ours was a benign chaos. leaving high school was different. i wasn't friends with upperclassmen, and i can't really say i feel nostalgia for that once upon a time in that hell dimension. it's true that the core fell apart and the second core didn't last very long either, but we had one hell of an autumn. in the end it was a good place. i think only a few of us really appreciate how it changed over the past three years. honestly, though the golden age was supposedly two years ago, i think this fall was the best for many of us in the long run. new loves, new complexities, a gradual growing together that allowed us to grow apart - or helped us stay together. ribs and movies, board games and word games, video hijinks, interim bliss...it all feels like a fairy tale. after only a week, reality has driven me so far away from that world that it might as well be a castle in the sky.