To You.
Dear _____.
In a way this is more for myself because you've always been the one I've wanted to come to when things were bothering me, but also because you need to know. I'm not going to sit here and say that I want you to change your mind even though I would love for you to, because while you may love me, I know you're scared of getting hurt and can't trust me, and if I were you I would feel the same way, especially with as many chances as we've had. What I do want you to know is that I'm honestly sorry for everything. I'm sorry for hurting you when you've done nothing but try to love me, for going behind your back, for hiding things when I knew deep down at the time I shouldn't have, for flirting and trying to get attention, for lying..even the little lies saying I couldnt hang out when I could, for letting people come between us and believing things I heard, for not acting like I was proud to be with you, and for not being everything I should have been from day one. I've never once showed my true feelings for you through the way I acted, but would talk up a storm saying how much I care. What I've learned is that talk is cheap; you can say how you feel a million times over, but it won't mean anything if it's never showed. I wish to God I could go back to July 17th, the day I met you. I'd give anything to take back the things I've done, but I can't and won't ever be able to so you're right, there are consequences for my actions even if I may not like them. I did love you, still do, and a part of me always will. Since day one of us dating I've been idealistic, and thats part of the reason why things happened the way they did; I only saw what I wanted to and how I wished things would be but never once acknowledged what was actually happening. Just know this much..I love you, I'll miss you, I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart, and I hope one day we'll be able to look back on this with no hard feelings and that you can find it in you to forgive me. I really have opened up my eyes these past couple of days, even though you've been trying to get me to for months and it's too late for us now. I would never regret anything thats happened between us, minus whats gone wrong. You've helped me learn a lot about myself and numerous other things, and no doubt helped me grow. You've made me know what it feels like to really be cared about and how it feels to be completely happy. You've been the best friend I ever had& were the only one that ever really knew me, unfortunately you got to know the flaws more than anything else. Thing is, it's not that we're not good for each other because you've always been good for me, it was me that was never good for you because I never gave you what you needed and was never everything I should have been to begin with. You've motivated me to change, not for you, but for myself because I was unhappy with the person I was becoming. I know everything happens for a reason. But so you know..I've always cared.
In a way this is more for myself because you've always been the one I've wanted to come to when things were bothering me, but also because you need to know. I'm not going to sit here and say that I want you to change your mind even though I would love for you to, because while you may love me, I know you're scared of getting hurt and can't trust me, and if I were you I would feel the same way, especially with as many chances as we've had. What I do want you to know is that I'm honestly sorry for everything. I'm sorry for hurting you when you've done nothing but try to love me, for going behind your back, for hiding things when I knew deep down at the time I shouldn't have, for flirting and trying to get attention, for lying..even the little lies saying I couldnt hang out when I could, for letting people come between us and believing things I heard, for not acting like I was proud to be with you, and for not being everything I should have been from day one. I've never once showed my true feelings for you through the way I acted, but would talk up a storm saying how much I care. What I've learned is that talk is cheap; you can say how you feel a million times over, but it won't mean anything if it's never showed. I wish to God I could go back to July 17th, the day I met you. I'd give anything to take back the things I've done, but I can't and won't ever be able to so you're right, there are consequences for my actions even if I may not like them. I did love you, still do, and a part of me always will. Since day one of us dating I've been idealistic, and thats part of the reason why things happened the way they did; I only saw what I wanted to and how I wished things would be but never once acknowledged what was actually happening. Just know this much..I love you, I'll miss you, I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart, and I hope one day we'll be able to look back on this with no hard feelings and that you can find it in you to forgive me. I really have opened up my eyes these past couple of days, even though you've been trying to get me to for months and it's too late for us now. I would never regret anything thats happened between us, minus whats gone wrong. You've helped me learn a lot about myself and numerous other things, and no doubt helped me grow. You've made me know what it feels like to really be cared about and how it feels to be completely happy. You've been the best friend I ever had& were the only one that ever really knew me, unfortunately you got to know the flaws more than anything else. Thing is, it's not that we're not good for each other because you've always been good for me, it was me that was never good for you because I never gave you what you needed and was never everything I should have been to begin with. You've motivated me to change, not for you, but for myself because I was unhappy with the person I was becoming. I know everything happens for a reason. But so you know..I've always cared.