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I feel like I am stuck in a rut. I can't explain it, but I keep falling deeper& deeper into it. Nothing is happening in my life- good or bad. My life has become so predictable& boring; I need some escape from everything. I'll admit, I'm actually looking forward to starting school on the 23rd. I'd like to be working more& have less time on my hands. I've been feeling really anxious for some reason recently, like I'm looking for something more. I just have no idea what that "something" is. I can't take much more of this though. But this whole "rut" that I'm stuck in is not helping my decision making, it's actually making it a lot harder.
Also, on a completely seperate note..
Any time that I go out to a party now it's as if I lock up and just start observing everything around me. I view social situations in a broader scope than just being "fucked up." Every word that comes out of my mouth doesn't have to do with the level of alcohol or drugs in my system. The biggest thing that I've noticed is that most people at parties aren't happy. When they're fucked up, their mental state has retarded to the point where they don't realize that they are unhappy in the first place. Of course, this doesn't apply to the social drinker, but rather the people that can't go a night without drinking or doing drugs. Get a grip. I did.
Also, on a completely seperate note..
Any time that I go out to a party now it's as if I lock up and just start observing everything around me. I view social situations in a broader scope than just being "fucked up." Every word that comes out of my mouth doesn't have to do with the level of alcohol or drugs in my system. The biggest thing that I've noticed is that most people at parties aren't happy. When they're fucked up, their mental state has retarded to the point where they don't realize that they are unhappy in the first place. Of course, this doesn't apply to the social drinker, but rather the people that can't go a night without drinking or doing drugs. Get a grip. I did.