why do your eyes change so much?

[electrolytes]

a lots happened but i dont wanna write about it all
finals this week & ive been studying all weekend

i've been way confused about stuff for the past few weeks
we've been dating for 7 months now &
for some reason when i'm alone i miss him a lot
but when i actually see him i get really annoyed kinda
everything feels so routine & expected & robotic.
last time i saw him was more than a week ago or so & i thought i was over all this but i found myself secretly convincing myself that i wish i was anywhere but with him. isnt that so horrible?
but very very soon im going home, & to chitown !!
i cant wait at all.
i just need to see fam/friends back home & have things be spontaneous and exciting
maybe that'll restore my positivity

i definitely think so ;D