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it sucks to feel alone.
and not just typical alone.
the type of loneliness you dont want you ANYONE to be aware of.
hiding this shit is so hard. wanting to cry every single second that you take a step. it even get harder to breath. for some reason my lugs wont open up when i need them to.
I'm so homesick right now. i miss the bird nest on my balcony, and the sounds or birds and airplanes in the morning.
i miss being able to talk to anyone, anywhere...
it's like i cannt even open my mouth to say a word. i feel like im judged on my every move.
the way i chew my food
the way i brush my teeth
the way i dress, talk, use what ever!
anything i do, is judged.
i dont feel i can be myself right now. i need time.
and not just typical alone.
the type of loneliness you dont want you ANYONE to be aware of.
hiding this shit is so hard. wanting to cry every single second that you take a step. it even get harder to breath. for some reason my lugs wont open up when i need them to.
I'm so homesick right now. i miss the bird nest on my balcony, and the sounds or birds and airplanes in the morning.
i miss being able to talk to anyone, anywhere...
it's like i cannt even open my mouth to say a word. i feel like im judged on my every move.
the way i chew my food
the way i brush my teeth
the way i dress, talk, use what ever!
anything i do, is judged.
i dont feel i can be myself right now. i need time.