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Thinking about it now.
I ask the question of what things would surprise me.
I had an answer to that question.
I wouldnt be surpised at all. Even to the most unexpected things, I wouldn't be surprised.
"Why?" you maybe ask. Well I'm just starting not to give a darn about life.
I wouldn't be surprised if i suddenly turned black
I wouldn't be surprised if i died before I turn 40
I wouldn't be surprised if i get fired
I wouldn't be surprised if my parents kicked me out
I wouldn't be surprised if i get pregnant
I wouldn't be surprised if my father kills himself
I wouldn't be surprised if i turned into a total lesbian
I wouldn't be surprised if my family is ashamed of me(which i know they aren't yet)
I wouldn't be surprised if i am an alien
Wtvr man, anything goes. Go wild and say something. I wouldnt be surprised. But yeat, humanly i would be concerned.
Lately I've been having strange dreams.
The last one was about a VERY bumpy road. Looked as if i was in Taiwan or something, because it had all these kinds of small shops. It looked like the Farmer's Market in California actually.Anyways that's not the point. Obviously i know what the dream means.
The funny things is that the sounds of my father vomiting in the other room woke me up from that strange dream. I started screaming because for all of you who didnt know i suffer from panic attacks and emetophobia (which is fear of vomiting and seeing other people vomit). Usually i freeze, scream, cry, or something like it. But I'm over coming it. There was once that my boyfriend puked and i sorta helped him out( but he didnt know i was freaking out inside). Anyways, my dad screams when he pukes so i was really scared and i started screaming. Yes i know im a freak :/.
I miss California. I miss SoFla.
I feel like this place isnt for me.
I FUCKING hate my job.
I can't say that i hate what im studying because i have taken the concentration classes yet.
I wish things with julian would get much better, because he's such a great guy and he deserves the best. But i cannt give him the best right now.
I've been on a emotional rollercoaster lately.
I need a break , seriously. God please out me to sleep for a while and wake me up when it's all over.
BTW My sister got dengue like 2 weeks ago and i dont know what i got but it was really close to dengue and i seriously wanted to die. Now my dad has it so everyone be careful and wash your hands cos theres a plague around here some where.
I ask the question of what things would surprise me.
I had an answer to that question.
I wouldnt be surpised at all. Even to the most unexpected things, I wouldn't be surprised.
"Why?" you maybe ask. Well I'm just starting not to give a darn about life.
I wouldn't be surprised if i suddenly turned black
I wouldn't be surprised if i died before I turn 40
I wouldn't be surprised if i get fired
I wouldn't be surprised if my parents kicked me out
I wouldn't be surprised if i get pregnant
I wouldn't be surprised if my father kills himself
I wouldn't be surprised if i turned into a total lesbian
I wouldn't be surprised if my family is ashamed of me(which i know they aren't yet)
I wouldn't be surprised if i am an alien
Wtvr man, anything goes. Go wild and say something. I wouldnt be surprised. But yeat, humanly i would be concerned.
Lately I've been having strange dreams.
The last one was about a VERY bumpy road. Looked as if i was in Taiwan or something, because it had all these kinds of small shops. It looked like the Farmer's Market in California actually.Anyways that's not the point. Obviously i know what the dream means.
The funny things is that the sounds of my father vomiting in the other room woke me up from that strange dream. I started screaming because for all of you who didnt know i suffer from panic attacks and emetophobia (which is fear of vomiting and seeing other people vomit). Usually i freeze, scream, cry, or something like it. But I'm over coming it. There was once that my boyfriend puked and i sorta helped him out( but he didnt know i was freaking out inside). Anyways, my dad screams when he pukes so i was really scared and i started screaming. Yes i know im a freak :/.
I miss California. I miss SoFla.
I feel like this place isnt for me.
I FUCKING hate my job.
I can't say that i hate what im studying because i have taken the concentration classes yet.
I wish things with julian would get much better, because he's such a great guy and he deserves the best. But i cannt give him the best right now.
I've been on a emotional rollercoaster lately.
I need a break , seriously. God please out me to sleep for a while and wake me up when it's all over.
BTW My sister got dengue like 2 weeks ago and i dont know what i got but it was really close to dengue and i seriously wanted to die. Now my dad has it so everyone be careful and wash your hands cos theres a plague around here some where.