Birthdays are never happy

[electrodx]

I fucking hate birthdays
I fucking hate people who say happy birthday
and I fucking hate you

I hate nostalgia
I hate sentimentality
I hate how every one seems to think that is some kind of game to hurt me
I hate being used
I hate being Abused
I hate going to sleep alone at night
And I hate wakening up alone every morning

I hate
I hate
I hate

I hate Love more than anything
I think I;m being punished for something
I must have made a mistake along the way

It seems that every time something perfect comes along
everything conspires to ruin it

I hate love because apparently I'm not allowed to have it

I'll kill anybody who wishes me happy birthday

maybe not kill, but ill be pretty upset with you

you don't even understand how much I hate this
My whole Life feels like an after thought
like Oh yeah we almost forgot Dx
better get him so he dosnt feel bad

not be cause we like him but
because we feel sorry for me

I hate how it seems that all my friends are only my friends because
either a) They are using me for something or b) they feel sorry for me

RAGE
RAGE
RAGE
RAGE
RAGE
RAGE

"The Sun Is the same in a relative way but your older
Shorter of breath and one day closer to death"

I want to cry
I want to break down on my knees and
ball like a little girl
but it seems my eyes have forgotten how
and my lips has forgotten how to shout

I hate being so angry
I hate being so hateful

I hate how people get mad at me because I'm not
what they expected me to be.

and I really hate how every body wants me to change

I guess my state of being can be summed up in two words

I HATE