And if a double decker bus crashes into us...
I miss my diary, I feel writing things down is often very therapeutic. Alas, it is at home, and not with me, I should probably also start a new diary as that one has far too many bad instances in it.
So for now, to rid me of potential insanity, I am writing here, ahh it has been a while dear 'journal'.
Problem A: I find it increasingly difficult to work out when people are friends, or could be something more. This is made increasingly difficult by the way in which everybody except said person assumes I'm already with them. Which is in fact untrue.
I feel as though I am living some kind of weird delusion where as far as everybody else is concerned I'm in some weird relationship with this guy, when actually, I'm not, and this is something that he continuously reminds me of by unknowingly pointing out my various flaws. Though when other people hear that we have watched films together, or gone out for food somewhere, as well as talking every day; they guess that it's getting serious. Which in most guy/girl friendships is likely to be true.
Realistic, objective perspective: If this were somebody else telling me their problem, I would tell them to ease off with this guy and be less close to him. Unfortunately, like most people, I am not very good at taking my own advice, and he is like the closest friend I have at the moment, but it's as though the memories of him essentially rejecting me make me feel as though I'm a constant disappointment or burden to him. Okay, yes, I'm gonna be cool about this and detach myself slightly, easier to deal with things that way.
So for now, to rid me of potential insanity, I am writing here, ahh it has been a while dear 'journal'.
Problem A: I find it increasingly difficult to work out when people are friends, or could be something more. This is made increasingly difficult by the way in which everybody except said person assumes I'm already with them. Which is in fact untrue.
I feel as though I am living some kind of weird delusion where as far as everybody else is concerned I'm in some weird relationship with this guy, when actually, I'm not, and this is something that he continuously reminds me of by unknowingly pointing out my various flaws. Though when other people hear that we have watched films together, or gone out for food somewhere, as well as talking every day; they guess that it's getting serious. Which in most guy/girl friendships is likely to be true.
Realistic, objective perspective: If this were somebody else telling me their problem, I would tell them to ease off with this guy and be less close to him. Unfortunately, like most people, I am not very good at taking my own advice, and he is like the closest friend I have at the moment, but it's as though the memories of him essentially rejecting me make me feel as though I'm a constant disappointment or burden to him. Okay, yes, I'm gonna be cool about this and detach myself slightly, easier to deal with things that way.