so you say you want honesty?

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she's the kina friend that leaves you wondering. she lets you go through that transition stage of you not knowing if she's still your friend or if she hates you. You think she's just mad and she'll cool off but in her mind she's already made up that you two are no longer friends. she does this to everyone. well everyone that gets close to her. you become friends again.. you have the best time together than she hates you again.. and you dont know what you did. i know what i did. i know that one of my "friends" brought back the past to her. i cant stand it when she hates me. i dont care if she doesnt want to be my friend, but we've had so much fun together the fact that she hates me makes me siiick. and than she IM's me everytime saying she wants all her shit back, but she wants me to give it to one of our friends to give to her, cause she cant face me. in reality there is no such thing as friends and i give up. I know i brought it all upon myself. I bring everything upon myself. and i dont know what else to say except i'm sorry, but the more you say sorry the less it starts to mean.

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FUCK it.

moving on

i’d give it all to make you half as happy
as you make me sad
and that would have to do
i wish that you could see just half in me
what i have for you

i'm out of boooks. books get me through. books i need boooks. but nope i'm out, wonderful.
my day really goes as i planned it. from now on i'm happy, with or without you. the end.

♥♥♥