sad endings, happy surprises?
As whoever reads this knows, I managed a band. When things started to get rocky, I abandoned them because I felt my time and effort was turning into a waste. 2-3 months ago, I had phoned ellery, because we've had trouble replacing a bassist, plus the trouble we had with the guitarist not in the mood to play. I told the singer that they could call me when they have their crap together basically. I've spent so much time with them, tried so hard to make them something. Their music was special, beautiful and something that will never see the light of day in the music world because Ellery called me today, out of nowhere to tell me the band had broken up. I knew it was where they were headed. It just made me really sad to hear that. He told me that the next band he joins, he wants me to manage them. Which made me feel special and important. I felt like maybe I did a good job, despite feelings of failing something. I told him thats very cool, but I don't even know if i would be able to manage them, when I'm trying to pursue vast. Whats crazy is he called, when i had thought about them recently, how they were doing, if everything was better without me, and how much I miss hearing their songs. I guess thats how it goes. today is ellery's birthday as well. he wanted to invite me to his party. I thought it was a couple of days ago, but he was surprised by my memory. Man I feel sad, I have tapes of their practice sessions, and demos, its just saddening that they crumbled. I miss them all, that band was my baby. I've lost my baby.