XDDD I can't believe you turned a conversation about "What would you do with Koyama if you had him for a day?" into THIS, how are you so amazing. :D ... *Cries a bit inside*
At 2 o’clock, according to Shige’s watch though they didn’t know if it was a.m. or p.m Okay, so it might just be me here, but that immediately sets me on edge because I cannot stand not knowing what time it is. The hour is meaningless really, if you aren't sure if it's day or night. D:
“Please,” Koyama pleaded. “Please, just let us go. Please, just let us go.” He begged, over and over, voice high and frightened I am a little pathetic, but I can imagine Koyama like that, all terrified and fighting tears but crying anyway. And since I can imagine his face and his voice and everything, it's all like, "Nooooo, Koyama whyyyyy" and T____T Guh.
Shige wanted to hold him but was afraid to touch him *Heart breaks* Those two are so touchy-feely that the idea of someone being able to make Shige too scared to initiate contact with Koyama... it makes my heart all achey.
I like that image. It's kind of like... a single bright spot of tenderness amongst a fic that kind of rips out your soul and stomps on it until you're a whimpering mess on the floor. alskdjfadr. :( :( Thank you?
There is something that makes me extremely uneasy about Koyama seeming to be much, much more broken by the whole ordeal than Shige. I realize that uh... Koyama was the one who got fucked, but it's still unnerving. Well. All SORTS of other things went on and it wasn't just Koyama but I didn't want to write it. And somehow I just feel like Koyama would deal with it the worst. Like he's made of hearts and rainbows while Shige's more practical. And I guess it worked out because I wanted it to seem like Koyama was more broken but Shige was just as bad only he was trying to be strong for Koyama.
(okay now I'm sure I'm psychic 'cause I found some of these right BEFORE you posted them on gen fic comms :D)
The story was indeed very dark but I was relieved to see there was no rape (which is more or less the kind of thing I try to avoid ;_;). It tore my heart to see Koyama breaking down like this when he was the first to oppose those guys at the very begining. And that sweetness that grows between them at the end hurts. Maybe because nothing good can uprise from pain. The pain will still there in the end (imao at least T_T). But I really loved this (especially Shige's characterization <3).
I'm usually kind of cautious when it comes to dark, angst fics because you never really know what you'll get to read, but what I read earlier from you was enough to make me want to give it a try. and god do I love your writing style. Words flow easily. The feelings are just so right and real with so little words sometimes. Beautiful ♥
Yeah, I try to stay away from rape too because...urgh. But this was about as close as you can get without it actually BEING rape and I was a bit uncomfortable.
Seriously, such a wonderful comment. Thank you for taking the time to do it!
I can totally get why you'd feel uneasy writing something like this (and askajeuh especially to your favorite boys ;_;) but, really, little things like Shige being so careful not to hurt Koyama make it very different from an actual rape.
Here, have keysmash instead: sdogihxoidfhoic jbxfpijsgidhadguoj+ladfiojhflbh
okay wait, my parents are sleeping already. keysmash too loud..
well.. you made me read koyashige. Is that enough for you feeling proud of yourself? haha Even though this one is probably not the right one to laugh. I had to swallow.. hard. And now I'm kind of depressed. If you said dark.. this was pitchblack. Really. Now I need a bright KoyaShige..
Oh god. This was so well written. I had chills the whole time I was reading.
Your description of their reactions all throughout was amazing... believable and heart-wrenching... And Shige knowing there is a way he is supposed to be reacting, and Koyama not pushing him away and them trying to claw their way back to normality together... it's so good and so overwhelming.
I'm really glad that you liked this since it was so difficult to write. I don't know what sort of angst monkey possessed me for a while there, heh. I especially liked that you found it believable. Thank you.
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I am speechless!!! D: Poor them...
Whoa, this was good ^^;
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... *Cries a bit inside*
At 2 o’clock, according to Shige’s watch though they didn’t know if it was a.m. or p.m
Okay, so it might just be me here, but that immediately sets me on edge because I cannot stand not knowing what time it is. The hour is meaningless really, if you aren't sure if it's day or night. D:
“Please,” Koyama pleaded. “Please, just let us go. Please, just let us go.” He begged, over and over, voice high and frightened
I am a little pathetic, but I can imagine Koyama like that, all terrified and fighting tears but crying anyway. And since I can imagine his face and his voice and everything, it's all like, "Nooooo, Koyama whyyyyy" and T____T Guh.
Shige wanted to hold him but was afraid to touch him
*Heart breaks* Those two are so touchy-feely that the idea of someone being able to make Shige too scared to initiate contact with Koyama... it makes my heart all achey.
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I like that image. It's kind of like... a single bright spot of tenderness amongst a fic that kind of rips out your soul and stomps on it until you're a whimpering mess on the floor.
alskdjfadr. :( :( Thank you?
There is something that makes me extremely uneasy about Koyama seeming to be much, much more broken by the whole ordeal than Shige. I realize that uh... Koyama was the one who got fucked, but it's still unnerving.
Well. All SORTS of other things went on and it wasn't just Koyama but I didn't want to write it. And somehow I just feel like Koyama would deal with it the worst. Like he's made of hearts and rainbows while Shige's more practical. And I guess it worked out because I wanted it to seem like Koyama was more broken but Shige was just as bad only he was trying to be strong for Koyama.
*hugs* You totally are to blame for this. :)
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The story was indeed very dark but I was relieved to see there was no rape (which is more or less the kind of thing I try to avoid ;_;).
It tore my heart to see Koyama breaking down like this when he was the first to oppose those guys at the very begining. And that sweetness that grows between them at the end hurts. Maybe because nothing good can uprise from pain. The pain will still there in the end (imao at least T_T).
But I really loved this (especially Shige's characterization <3).
I'm usually kind of cautious when it comes to dark, angst fics because you never really know what you'll get to read, but what I read earlier from you was enough to make me want to give it a try. and god do I love your writing style. Words flow easily. The feelings are just so right and real with so little words sometimes. Beautiful ♥
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Yeah, I try to stay away from rape too because...urgh. But this was about as close as you can get without it actually BEING rape and I was a bit uncomfortable.
Seriously, such a wonderful comment. Thank you for taking the time to do it!
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My pleasure, really <3
I can totally get why you'd feel uneasy writing something like this (and askajeuh especially to your favorite boys ;_;) but, really, little things like Shige being so careful not to hurt Koyama make it very different from an actual rape.
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Erm no.
Here, have keysmash instead:
sdogihxoidfhoic jbxfpijsgidhadguoj+ladfiojhflbh
okay wait, my parents are sleeping already. keysmash too loud..
well.. you made me read koyashige. Is that enough for you feeling proud of yourself? haha
Even though this one is probably not the right one to laugh. I had to swallow.. hard. And now I'm kind of depressed. If you said dark.. this was pitchblack. Really.
Now I need a bright KoyaShige..
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Your description of their reactions all throughout was amazing... believable and heart-wrenching... And Shige knowing there is a way he is supposed to be reacting, and Koyama not pushing him away and them trying to claw their way back to normality together... it's so good and so overwhelming.
Very, very well done, dearest.
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