In the Dark (I touch myself)

[sanjihan]

Title: In the Dark (I touch myself)
Pairing: Koyama/Tegoshi
Rating: R
Words: 1,660
Summary: “He doesn’t feel guilty for imagining him like this. Why should he? It feels good, makes him feel good, to imagine he’s the one touching him.”
Notes: A very merry un-birthday to bananyphophany. Really, I will write a cute KoyaTego someday.

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Tegoshi said to make sure you came.”

Koyama’s nostrils flared. Wouldn’t that be nice.
AHAHAHAHAHA OMG TARA I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW.
Yes, Tegoshi certainly wants him to come. It’s no fun if he doesn’t. *Blink*

then Tegoshi was throwing himself into Koyama’s lap and wrapping tanned arms around his neck.
LOL, he could tell that his Kei-chan was thinking of saying no. But man, that would be ADORABLE. I like this image very much.♥ Tegoshi in laps wins me over, I’m serious. What a snugly child. XD

preferably as long drawn out moans and staccato words, and then thought he might pass out from embarrassment
I AM WITH YOU ON THIS ONE, KOYAMA. And also, strangely, want to listen to Bambina… I wonder why I’d ever want to do that. :O
Tegoshi’s moans would be hot, it’s obvious from NEWS’ songs. XD; He has a fine voice.

his mouth said “Okay” entirely without his permission
His mouth knows better than him that saying no to Tegoshi is just not something that is meant to happen in this world.

“It’s okay,” he replied cheerfully. “Koyama will take me.”
LOL TEGOSHI. Or rather, lol Tara. Though yes, in Tara’s fics, that is most likely what is going to happen, and not the other way around. XD

Tegoshi just smiled charmingly at him.
God I love that boy. XD

He needed to be able to be alone with Tegoshi without thinking about pinning him to the wall.
NO YOU DON’T, KOYAMA. What you need to do is act on it. XD This is the difference between him and Tegoshi. Koyama thinks he needs to try to stop wanting to take him against the wall. Tegoshi thinks he needs to fulfil his fantasy of taking Koyama against the wall.

“Want anything to drink, Koyama?”
Aww, look, he has manners. XD

“You seem nervous,” he said, an impish grin on his face.
OH MY GOD, YOU LITTLE BRAT XD He totally knows already that he’s nervous and he totally already knows why. He just loves to make people squirm. Particularly Koyama.

pulling his face down as he stretched up and kissed him, a lingering press of lips full of promise
YAY, KISS KISS KISS!!! :D :D :D I’m totally imagining this scene in my head in picture and it makes me feel very, very happy. 8D And mm, I bet it was full of promise. Since he totally wants to bang him.

Koyama, startled, pushed Tegoshi away
HAHAHAHA oh man, I bet you Tegs isn’t used to that kind of treatment. XD He’s probably more used to the, “OH PLEASE, DO IT AGAIN” response.

“I hadn’t meant for it to be. I’ve just wanted to do that for a while.”
LOL of COURSE he would respond this way. Of course he would. XD Not bothered by the rejection whatsoever. Probably because he knows it’s not a real rejection. But still.

Tegoshi smirked. “And I promise I’ll be gentle.”
Poor deluded Tego. What he means is, “And I promise, I’ll take it gently.”

Tegoshi leaned in for a third try and this time Koyama responded
Third time lucky, baby. XD

tangling fingers in Tegoshi’s hair and tugging him so that he straddled his lap
*___* Mm, and totally worth the wait too, because, yes. Lap straddling, hello another one of my kinks. >> And the fingers in hair and pulling, yes. Yes, I like that a lot too… I think I just like people being a little rouch on Tegs. It makes me sparkle.

pulling Tegoshi close and kissing him hard as he lifted him just enough to turn around and sit properly against the back of the couch and let Tegoshi kiss him into incoherency
This whole section deserves quoting, because it is hot and KoyaTego and kissing, and HOT. Yes. Also, Tegoshi kissing Koyama incoherent? That’s the kind of stuff I want to dream about, mmmm…

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sometimes Koyama will get this heated look in his eyes and will blush a bit before he turns out the light and finds Tegoshi by feel alone
*Whines*
YES PLEASE. Mmm, Koyama looking all passionate and feeling his way to Tego, idk, those two just make a hot couple.

he loves watching Koyama watch him, eyes dark with need and want
XD Bloody people like Tego. They think the world is looking at them, even when they aren’t. But yeah, um… seeing Koyama want you would be quite the hot thing.

what he likes better is the feel of gentle hands pressing carefully against him, lips stuttering along his skin
OH GOD, TOO HOT. Mmm, Koyama’s lips on Tegoshi’s skin… I can’t think of anything better, aside from Tegoshi’s lips on Koyama’s skin. XD And lol, Koyama being gentle with Tego. I ALSO LIKE THAT, OKAY? I’m not ALL about the rough Tego treatment. .____. Koyama being gentle and loving and caring with him makes my heart melt also.

quiet giggles when they don’t end up where expected
AWWWW. Those two♥ I love the thought of them being able to be silly with each other, even when they’re all naked and doing bad things to each other. :D So cute. So adorable.

And, anyway, Tegoshi knows that the dark belongs to them.
*SQUEAL*
TARAAAAAAAAA. OMG, FLAIL FLAIL FLAIL!!!

I LOVED IT SO MUCH. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONTH, ME. *____* DUDE, SERIOUSLY, KOYATEGO MAKES ME SO HAPPY. It is so SCARCE, and good KoyaTego is even LESS so. I’m so happy you will write this underappreciated pairing for me. AND JUST FOR ME♥ :D
And now to make sure this entire thing isn’t just me flailing about “OMG THIS IS ALL SO HOT” have some actual constructive comments on your talents and triumphs. XD

You know I love your Koyama. XD You have… a lot of practice with him, anyway. He’s not some crying baby harping on about member love, he shows his love for the others, and it’s awesome and in this particular case, mostly for Tego.

And I SERIOUSLY love your Tegoshi so much, (SO STOP WORRYING AND WRITE MORE OF HIM :D :D :D! :D?) he’s not like a caricature of himself, but all pit pitfalls (what few there are 8D) are still there, along with his good points and his weak moments (THEY EXIST DAMNIT, AND THEY MAKE HIM ALL THE CUTER), and his numerous sweet and caring points that so many people forget about when they just write him as selfish, bratty Tegod, and not as girly, prissy Tego. You totally write him pretty much as I imagine him being, and as a proper well-rounded character, and just… guh. *___* Amazing.

I LOVE YOU~ I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, NEVER EVER LEAVE ME~♥ IF YOU DO, I MIGHT DIE. :D
Thank you so much, you are the first person to give me a birthday present this year AND I LOVE IT AND WILL TREASURE IT ETERNALLY. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

[sanjihan]

O_O I think you have outdone yourself, lol.

Oh wait. BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME. :D
That IS the general idea. XD

and that is totally how I imagine him♥
I'd be lying if I didn't say that my portrayal of Tegoshi didn't have a lot to do with how you view him and our conversations.

DAMNIT TARA, YOU’RE TOO GOOD AT THIS.
I very carefully watch what you write and what you say and file it all away for times like this. :D

I totally see Koyama as that type of guy. XD “I shouldn’t, BUT GOD IT’S SO GOOD I’LL FEEL GUILTY LATER.”
MEEE TOOOOOOOOO. *cuddles Koyama*

THANK YOU FOR ADDING TO MY LIST OF KINKS, LOL.
Anytime, yo. XD

No wonder he came back so quickly (Bad dum, chh. Everyone’s a comedian these days).
roflmao. Have I told you lately how I love you?

I sound like I’m not keeping my hands above the waist, but I swear that I am.
*snorts* I'll believe you. This time.

LOL POOR BOYS. Total “OH FUCK” moment.
ehehehehe. I can totally imagine their faces too. It would be hilarious.

AND ONLY YOU WOULD PICK UP ON THE KOYASHIGE IN MY KOYATEGO; so subtle even I didn't know it was there hahahaha. I love you so much.

We now interrupt Cait’s massive Tegoflailing bias to bring you some SEXY, SEXY KOYAMA LOVE.
About damn time. XD jk And it's okay because I was drooling over Koyama enough for both of us. :D

LOL Koyama is worrying that he’s a pedo. 8D Don’t worry, Koyama, Tegoshi makes everyone feel this way, and probably has since Gachibaka time.
roflmao. Damn that kid.

Um…. Yeah… I LOVE THE WAY YOU DESCRIBED TEGOSHI HERE, so perfect.
He totally does look just like that. In his especially pretty pics it's even more obvious. Our beautiful, delicate boy.

AHAHAHAHAHA OMG TARA I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW.
I was clearly thinking with my 15 yo boy mind when I wrote this fic because I kept writing things and then snickering to myself and making Koyama comment on it. XD

Though yes, in Tara’s fics, that is most likely what is going to happen, and not the other way around. XD
I wonder if writing you Tego topping Koyama fic would hurt you enough to compensate for my own pain in writing it...

Poor deluded Tego. What he means is, “And I promise, I’ll take it gently.”
*snorts*

So cute. So adorable.
I obviously can't escape the cute that is KoyaTego relations even in my smut fic.

I totally do write it just for you because I love you. :) I don't know why you chose your birthday fic to be all constructive commenting on my abilities since it's YOUR BDAY FIC but I will assume that your love for me was overwhelming you and you needed to let me know. And I will, of course, accept it. XD

Hahaha. I definitely do have lots of practice with Koyama. :D I love him dearly. I am getting much more comfortable with Tegoshi, thanks to you. I am certainly writing a lot of him lately. XD

I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU for I don't want you to die and I would also be sad and probably very bored. And I'm the first person because it's ridiculously early. XD

*hugs* Happy early birthday. :)

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XD Yeah, I think my comment was longer than the fic. *Flaps* I'm a freak. idk, I appreciate ficpresents a lot. XD;

I'd be lying if I didn't say that my portrayal of Tegoshi didn't have a lot to do with how you view him and our conversations
Lucky I'm totally right about him. 8D But no, discovering his personality type totally gives me fic writing ammunition, because he's proven to be an utterly perfect sanguine so far, what with his lack of organizational skills and harmlessly self-centered behaviour.

I'll believe you. This time.
I couldn't type if I hadn't been, you know. :P

wonder if writing you Tego topping Koyama fic would hurt you enough to compensate for my own pain
I'm not sure whether to say, "Yes, of course" to try and get some out of you, or to tell you the truth. XD

lol, shut up, I can be constructive if the mood hits me. :P And it was basically still flailing, so yeah.
You are writing a lot of Tego. XD; I feel like I should apologize for that. I'm sorry. BUT you are becoming a more well-rounded NEWS writer who will be able to comfortably write Tego for fic exchanges if you so need to. :D

HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO ME. I like early, do not worry. My birthday bubble is extra enlarged this year.