In the Dark (I touch myself)
Title: In the Dark (I touch myself)
Pairing: Koyama/Tegoshi
Rating: R
Words: 1,660
Summary: “He doesn’t feel guilty for imagining him like this. Why should he? It feels good, makes him feel good, to imagine he’s the one touching him.”
Notes: A very merry un-birthday to bananyphophany. Really, I will write a cute KoyaTego someday.
( When I think about you... )
Pairing: Koyama/Tegoshi
Rating: R
Words: 1,660
Summary: “He doesn’t feel guilty for imagining him like this. Why should he? It feels good, makes him feel good, to imagine he’s the one touching him.”
Notes: A very merry un-birthday to bananyphophany. Really, I will write a cute KoyaTego someday.
( When I think about you... )
Merry unbirthday to me indeed! Well, like I said yesterday, t'is the season. XD April is here, my birthday is in under three weeks.
I will write a cute KoyaTego someday
Yes you will. I'll be here to assure that. 8D
OKAY. So, onto the actual fic.
body still damp and warm from his bath
LOL you spoil me. Starting off with pretty much the most delicious image ever. I don’t want to see him nude in AnAn, BUT I would certainly not say no to un-posed naked Tegoshi.
he begins trailing fingertips across his chest in random patterns, moaning quietly when he brings them over a nipple
OMG TARA. Have you noticed my obsession with Tegoshi’s nipples? Because, freaky as it is, it’s also there and RAMPANT. Lol, they’re all tiny and pink, but that does nothing to quell it. It probably makes it worse. BUT GAH, why is the idea of Tegoshi touching himself so, so hot? Why do you do this to me?
Oh wait. BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME. :D
He doesn’t feel guilty for imagining him like this. Why should he?
Tegoshi? Guilty? Lol, not happening. Have I told you recently that I love your Tegoshi? Because I DO, god, he’s so perfect and unintentionally self-centred but not selfish and arrogant, and that is totally how I imagine him♥
he cries out Koyama’s name and feels no shame.
BAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWW TEGS. He’s so totally got an actual thing for Koyama, more than just being like, “OH MY GOD HOTNESS I WANNA BANG YOU”. ♥ How precious, I love him.
he tries to block out the vivid dream he’d been having of pink lips wrapped around his erection
NO KOYAMA, DON’T FIGHT IT. *____* YOU ARE A LUCKY MAN TO BE HAVING SUCH DREAMS. I also have an obsession with Tegoshi’s pink lips. I think just Tegoshi’s pinkness in general (not in a perverted way) appeals to me, why do you hit me in all my weak spots. :D :D :D
Koyama can’t keep his eyes off the single freckle just above them
OH AND FRECKLES. DAMNIT TARA, YOU’RE TOO GOOD AT THIS. You should totally write for me for the rest of our days, because I don’t need anyone else♥ Damnit, why so hot? I love his lip freckles, they’re so cute and afhajkgaejgraj T_________T GOD.
he looks into Tegoshi’s eyes, pupils blown wide with want
THAT IS SO ATTRACTIVE. Bedroom eyes, guh, GORGEOUS, GORGEOUS. Also, KoyaTego eye contact is a fine, fine thing that makes me happy in my pants.
gives in and saves the guilt for later
I totally see Koyama as that type of guy. XD “I shouldn’t, BUT GOD IT’S SO GOOD I’LL FEEL GUILTY LATER.”
Tegoshi, frustrated, made a beeline for the bathroom
Why is the thought of frustrated Tego strangely compelling? Maybe because he’s not usually frustrated, idek, but sexually frustrated Tegoshi somehow pleases me. THANK YOU FOR ADDING TO MY LIST OF KINKS, LOL.
it was so easy to close his eyes and lean up against its wall, slipping cool fingers over sweat-slicked abs and under the waistband of his boxer-briefs
That is very nice imagery and the juxtaposition of Tegoshi’s hot body (lawl), compared to his cool fingers, particularly when he’s going to be imaging that they’re someone else’s, is pretty cool. It’s a pity that my attention has completely been stolen by the thought of Tegoshi touching himself again. :B And also by the next part.
He remembered the outline of Koyama’s half-hard cock pressed against his ass as they danced and the glazed look in Koyama’s eyes
UNF. You’ve probably picked up on this kink of mine too, but I love it when the boys grind each other in clubs in fics (I’d love it even more if they ever did it in real life, but Tegoshi would probably be the only one who’d actually try it. XD). So, uh… yeah. YOU WIN AGAIN. Why so much win, Tara? Why? And the glazed eyes, mmm… *___* Dazed and entranced Koyama all infatuated with Tego is delicious.
he’d felt the need to be flush against his body if only for a moment
ABDALGRAELGAHLE OH TEGO♥ I love him when he’s making excuses to do things, it shows that he’s not a completely brazen hussy brat. :D
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YES PLEASE. VERY MUCH YES PLEASE. Okay, Koyama manhandling Tego would be ahfdjagejlgl-ing hot. Well, not man-handling. But getting a little rough and possessive over him, POSSESSIVE KOYAMA IS JUST KINDA HOT, OKAY?
Now I want to write KoyaTego, damnit. XD;
Ahem. And Tegoshi getting off on Koyama touching him like that is even better. Thank you. Yes.
Shige was still out at the club having drinks with Ryo
No wonder he came back so quickly (Bad dum, chh. Everyone’s a comedian these days).
Tegoshi had been just this side of really tipsy and grinding against Koyama like there should be no air between them, let alone clothing
NGUH. Okay, tipsy, skanky Tego is something I would certainly like to see. Tipsy, skanky Tego grinding against Koyama like it’s some kind of Olympic sport? Something I would pay to see. XD
he shuddered at the feeling of Tegoshi’s slick lips grazing the shell of his ear with every syllable
OH GOD, FUCK.
I sound like I’m not keeping my hands above the waist, but I swear that I am. I SWEAR. I am just finding this very attractive. Idk, I like to imagine KoyaTego? Something like that. XD But seriously, cannot blame Koyama for enjoying Tegoshi’s lips against his ear. *___* Mmmm….
his eyes snapped open to see Shige staring open-mouthed at him before quickly stepping back out
LOL POOR BOYS. Total “OH FUCK” moment. I hope the image didn’t haunt Shige or follow him into his dreams >D. The awesome thing is that I can totally imagine both their faces. XD
“That tall redhead was pretty hot, right?”
I know you said Shige and Koyama weren’t into each other in this fic, but uh… your subconscious doesn’t agree. The tall redhead in your hotel room is pretty hot, right Shige? :P
He didn’t know how to tell Shige that it was really the short brunette he was more interested in
LOL KOYAMA. Tego’s as pretty as a girl, that’s a good enough excuse to ignore all the actual girls in the club. And besides. Everyone is secretly into the short brunet at least a little, even if they deny it.
thought of how the tight muscles were bunching under his clothing, strong thighs flexing as he stood back up
We now interrupt Cait’s massive Tegoflailing bias to bring you some SEXY, SEXY KOYAMA LOVE. Mmm, Koyama’s tight muscles and strong thighs. Tegoshi probably wants those thighs wrapped around his waist. Because he thinks he’s going to top, bless his little cotton socks. :D
Tegoshi wanted to crawl up between his legs and place lazy kisses in the curve of his neck
aghjkahrjlgjkle that’s kind of the sweetest image ever, just saying. *____* Koyama and Tegoshi cuddling lazily on the couch. They’re both such cuddly people as well, it would be so, so very cute…
He could already feel an interested stirring in his groin
But obviously Tegoshi thinks of it as being less cute and more sexual. That’s okay, I don’t mind, we all have differing opinions on these things. XD;
Koyama looked up at him and suddenly blushed when he saw that Tegoshi was looking back.
Ah ha, he thought.
LOL Tego catches on, clever boy. XD Poor Koyama, I can really see him as being completely obvious when he’s in love lust. 8D
Koyama was beginning to feel like some kind of deviant
LOL Koyama is worrying that he’s a pedo. 8D Don’t worry, Koyama, Tegoshi makes everyone feel this way, and probably has since Gachibaka time.
He snuck embarrassed looks at the object of his near-daily fantasies, at the fragile-looking angles of his elfin face, at the way he threw back his head and laughed in a fit of childish glee, and felt dirty
Lol, can’t take your eyes off, huh, Koya? :D Not that I can talk… *Stares at the Tego picture on her desk* Um…. Yeah… I LOVE THE WAY YOU DESCRIBED TEGOSHI HERE, so perfect. *___* He seriously does have some picture where he looks like a little elf or pixie and lord, it is cute. :D And yes, Koyama. You are a dirty boy, but that pleases us. Yes it does…
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Koyama’s nostrils flared. Wouldn’t that be nice.
AHAHAHAHAHA OMG TARA I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW.
Yes, Tegoshi certainly wants him to come. It’s no fun if he doesn’t. *Blink*
then Tegoshi was throwing himself into Koyama’s lap and wrapping tanned arms around his neck.
LOL, he could tell that his Kei-chan was thinking of saying no. But man, that would be ADORABLE. I like this image very much.♥ Tegoshi in laps wins me over, I’m serious. What a snugly child. XD
preferably as long drawn out moans and staccato words, and then thought he might pass out from embarrassment
I AM WITH YOU ON THIS ONE, KOYAMA. And also, strangely, want to listen to Bambina… I wonder why I’d ever want to do that. :O
Tegoshi’s moans would be hot, it’s obvious from NEWS’ songs. XD; He has a fine voice.
his mouth said “Okay” entirely without his permission
His mouth knows better than him that saying no to Tegoshi is just not something that is meant to happen in this world.
“It’s okay,” he replied cheerfully. “Koyama will take me.”
LOL TEGOSHI. Or rather, lol Tara. Though yes, in Tara’s fics, that is most likely what is going to happen, and not the other way around. XD
Tegoshi just smiled charmingly at him.
God I love that boy. XD
He needed to be able to be alone with Tegoshi without thinking about pinning him to the wall.
NO YOU DON’T, KOYAMA. What you need to do is act on it. XD This is the difference between him and Tegoshi. Koyama thinks he needs to try to stop wanting to take him against the wall. Tegoshi thinks he needs to fulfil his fantasy of taking Koyama against the wall.
“Want anything to drink, Koyama?”
Aww, look, he has manners. XD
“You seem nervous,” he said, an impish grin on his face.
OH MY GOD, YOU LITTLE BRAT XD He totally knows already that he’s nervous and he totally already knows why. He just loves to make people squirm. Particularly Koyama.
pulling his face down as he stretched up and kissed him, a lingering press of lips full of promise
YAY, KISS KISS KISS!!! :D :D :D I’m totally imagining this scene in my head in picture and it makes me feel very, very happy. 8D And mm, I bet it was full of promise. Since he totally wants to bang him.
Koyama, startled, pushed Tegoshi away
HAHAHAHA oh man, I bet you Tegs isn’t used to that kind of treatment. XD He’s probably more used to the, “OH PLEASE, DO IT AGAIN” response.
“I hadn’t meant for it to be. I’ve just wanted to do that for a while.”
LOL of COURSE he would respond this way. Of course he would. XD Not bothered by the rejection whatsoever. Probably because he knows it’s not a real rejection. But still.
Tegoshi smirked. “And I promise I’ll be gentle.”
Poor deluded Tego. What he means is, “And I promise, I’ll take it gently.”
Tegoshi leaned in for a third try and this time Koyama responded
Third time lucky, baby. XD
tangling fingers in Tegoshi’s hair and tugging him so that he straddled his lap
*___* Mm, and totally worth the wait too, because, yes. Lap straddling, hello another one of my kinks. >> And the fingers in hair and pulling, yes. Yes, I like that a lot too… I think I just like people being a little rouch on Tegs. It makes me sparkle.
pulling Tegoshi close and kissing him hard as he lifted him just enough to turn around and sit properly against the back of the couch and let Tegoshi kiss him into incoherency
This whole section deserves quoting, because it is hot and KoyaTego and kissing, and HOT. Yes. Also, Tegoshi kissing Koyama incoherent? That’s the kind of stuff I want to dream about, mmmm…
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*Whines*
YES PLEASE. Mmm, Koyama looking all passionate and feeling his way to Tego, idk, those two just make a hot couple.
he loves watching Koyama watch him, eyes dark with need and want
XD Bloody people like Tego. They think the world is looking at them, even when they aren’t. But yeah, um… seeing Koyama want you would be quite the hot thing.
what he likes better is the feel of gentle hands pressing carefully against him, lips stuttering along his skin
OH GOD, TOO HOT. Mmm, Koyama’s lips on Tegoshi’s skin… I can’t think of anything better, aside from Tegoshi’s lips on Koyama’s skin. XD And lol, Koyama being gentle with Tego. I ALSO LIKE THAT, OKAY? I’m not ALL about the rough Tego treatment. .____. Koyama being gentle and loving and caring with him makes my heart melt also.
quiet giggles when they don’t end up where expected
AWWWW. Those two♥ I love the thought of them being able to be silly with each other, even when they’re all naked and doing bad things to each other. :D So cute. So adorable.
And, anyway, Tegoshi knows that the dark belongs to them.
*SQUEAL*
TARAAAAAAAAA. OMG, FLAIL FLAIL FLAIL!!!
I LOVED IT SO MUCH. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MONTH, ME. *____* DUDE, SERIOUSLY, KOYATEGO MAKES ME SO HAPPY. It is so SCARCE, and good KoyaTego is even LESS so. I’m so happy you will write this underappreciated pairing for me. AND JUST FOR ME♥ :D
And now to make sure this entire thing isn’t just me flailing about “OMG THIS IS ALL SO HOT” have some actual constructive comments on your talents and triumphs. XD
You know I love your Koyama. XD You have… a lot of practice with him, anyway. He’s not some crying baby harping on about member love, he shows his love for the others, and it’s awesome and in this particular case, mostly for Tego.
And I SERIOUSLY love your Tegoshi so much, (SO STOP WORRYING AND WRITE MORE OF HIM :D :D :D! :D?) he’s not like a caricature of himself, but all pit pitfalls (what few there are 8D) are still there, along with his good points and his weak moments (THEY EXIST DAMNIT, AND THEY MAKE HIM ALL THE CUTER), and his numerous sweet and caring points that so many people forget about when they just write him as selfish, bratty Tegod, and not as girly, prissy Tego. You totally write him pretty much as I imagine him being, and as a proper well-rounded character, and just… guh. *___* Amazing.
I LOVE YOU~ I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, NEVER EVER LEAVE ME~♥ IF YOU DO, I MIGHT DIE. :D
Thank you so much, you are the first person to give me a birthday present this year AND I LOVE IT AND WILL TREASURE IT ETERNALLY. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
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Oh wait. BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME. :D
That IS the general idea. XD
and that is totally how I imagine him♥
I'd be lying if I didn't say that my portrayal of Tegoshi didn't have a lot to do with how you view him and our conversations.
DAMNIT TARA, YOU’RE TOO GOOD AT THIS.
I very carefully watch what you write and what you say and file it all away for times like this. :D
I totally see Koyama as that type of guy. XD “I shouldn’t, BUT GOD IT’S SO GOOD I’LL FEEL GUILTY LATER.”
MEEE TOOOOOOOOO. *cuddles Koyama*
THANK YOU FOR ADDING TO MY LIST OF KINKS, LOL.
Anytime, yo. XD
No wonder he came back so quickly (Bad dum, chh. Everyone’s a comedian these days).
roflmao. Have I told you lately how I love you?
I sound like I’m not keeping my hands above the waist, but I swear that I am.
*snorts* I'll believe you. This time.
LOL POOR BOYS. Total “OH FUCK” moment.
ehehehehe. I can totally imagine their faces too. It would be hilarious.
AND ONLY YOU WOULD PICK UP ON THE KOYASHIGE IN MY KOYATEGO; so subtle even I didn't know it was there hahahaha. I love you so much.
We now interrupt Cait’s massive Tegoflailing bias to bring you some SEXY, SEXY KOYAMA LOVE.
About damn time. XD jk And it's okay because I was drooling over Koyama enough for both of us. :D
LOL Koyama is worrying that he’s a pedo. 8D Don’t worry, Koyama, Tegoshi makes everyone feel this way, and probably has since Gachibaka time.
roflmao. Damn that kid.
Um…. Yeah… I LOVE THE WAY YOU DESCRIBED TEGOSHI HERE, so perfect.
He totally does look just like that. In his especially pretty pics it's even more obvious. Our beautiful, delicate boy.
AHAHAHAHAHA OMG TARA I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW.
I was clearly thinking with my 15 yo boy mind when I wrote this fic because I kept writing things and then snickering to myself and making Koyama comment on it. XD
Though yes, in Tara’s fics, that is most likely what is going to happen, and not the other way around. XD
I wonder if writing you Tego topping Koyama fic would hurt you enough to compensate for my own pain in writing it...
Poor deluded Tego. What he means is, “And I promise, I’ll take it gently.”
*snorts*
So cute. So adorable.
I obviously can't escape the cute that is KoyaTego relations even in my smut fic.
I totally do write it just for you because I love you. :) I don't know why you chose your birthday fic to be all constructive commenting on my abilities since it's YOUR BDAY FIC but I will assume that your love for me was overwhelming you and you needed to let me know. And I will, of course, accept it. XD
Hahaha. I definitely do have lots of practice with Koyama. :D I love him dearly. I am getting much more comfortable with Tegoshi, thanks to you. I am certainly writing a lot of him lately. XD
I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU for I don't want you to die and I would also be sad and probably very bored. And I'm the first person because it's ridiculously early. XD
*hugs* Happy early birthday. :)
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I'd be lying if I didn't say that my portrayal of Tegoshi didn't have a lot to do with how you view him and our conversations
Lucky I'm totally right about him. 8D But no, discovering his personality type totally gives me fic writing ammunition, because he's proven to be an utterly perfect sanguine so far, what with his lack of organizational skills and harmlessly self-centered behaviour.
I'll believe you. This time.
I couldn't type if I hadn't been, you know. :P
wonder if writing you Tego topping Koyama fic would hurt you enough to compensate for my own pain
I'm not sure whether to say, "Yes, of course" to try and get some out of you, or to tell you the truth. XD
lol, shut up, I can be constructive if the mood hits me. :P And it was basically still flailing, so yeah.
You are writing a lot of Tego. XD; I feel like I should apologize for that. I'm sorry. BUT you are becoming a more well-rounded NEWS writer who will be able to comfortably write Tego for fic exchanges if you so need to. :D
HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY TO ME. I like early, do not worry. My birthday bubble is extra enlarged this year.
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