update on me & babies
so some people on my lj have known for a bit, but we're not having the easiest time getting pregnant. it's nothing serious, and we're in pretty good spirits about it, because i haven't felt the need to be bummy - there's enough to cause that already. we've already gone through a lot of testing and things like that, and i've had it locked from the public eye because i wasn't sure how ready i was to share it with the outside world.
i've always only locked posts that might get me in trouble if they were publicly searchable, but my mother reads this journal too, and my sister, and even though i give updates on the phone i feel as if they'd like to be able to see stuff about that too. it's only been two months, but ever time i post i feel as if i'm compromising my personal blogging rules. but they're my rules i suppose, and i can bend them if i want ;P
anyways, i'm just really rambling. my point is, is that i will most likely unlock them today. i usually cut most of them to spare people from reading about details that are sensitive and not something they want to learn about me, but those who read by my web page (which will include the work people who have found it to date, which i found out about a week or two ago :P) won't have the luxury of a cut, they'll see the whole kit and caboodle. that's alright, because i have nothing to hide, really.
this entire process has proven to me that i'm a whole lot braver than i ever gave myself credit for, and it's given me a new perspective and sensitivity that i'd been slowly losing (at least i felt) the last few years. if nothing else i hope anyone who's going through something similar can read it and realize they're far from alone. so i suppose come and laugh and cry with me if it feels right to do. it's a part of me, and i believe that i'm comfortable enough to let it out now. if you're interested in catching up on the whole story, click here :)
i've always only locked posts that might get me in trouble if they were publicly searchable, but my mother reads this journal too, and my sister, and even though i give updates on the phone i feel as if they'd like to be able to see stuff about that too. it's only been two months, but ever time i post i feel as if i'm compromising my personal blogging rules. but they're my rules i suppose, and i can bend them if i want ;P
anyways, i'm just really rambling. my point is, is that i will most likely unlock them today. i usually cut most of them to spare people from reading about details that are sensitive and not something they want to learn about me, but those who read by my web page (which will include the work people who have found it to date, which i found out about a week or two ago :P) won't have the luxury of a cut, they'll see the whole kit and caboodle. that's alright, because i have nothing to hide, really.
this entire process has proven to me that i'm a whole lot braver than i ever gave myself credit for, and it's given me a new perspective and sensitivity that i'd been slowly losing (at least i felt) the last few years. if nothing else i hope anyone who's going through something similar can read it and realize they're far from alone. so i suppose come and laugh and cry with me if it feels right to do. it's a part of me, and i believe that i'm comfortable enough to let it out now. if you're interested in catching up on the whole story, click here :)