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i dont remember alot of things from last night.
i dont remember the whole bike ride home. i got far too stoned and wanted to just die i was tripping out so badly. mike made it worse by going insane on whatever the fuck he took.
other then the discusting drugs, i had a fun night. i feel oblisgated to take care of my friends when we are in a possition that something could go wrong. im like the mom all the time. sometimes i hate it.
i liked the part when i tried to get perry to be a motivational speaker to dan and tell him he can get off cocaine. that was funny, jayd thought it was hillarious then i told him today.
im out of cigarettes and im already fending for one so badly. i really want to quit but its really hard to find a reason. its comfort for me to what my life could still be or even what once was. stupid maybe.. but im sentimental in the weirdest ways. i just had a realization that every boy i have dated with the exception of marc is a smoker. and alot of the time i think of that to be a common ground with alot of the people i associate with. crazy.
i have to pee and sleep.
i dont remember the whole bike ride home. i got far too stoned and wanted to just die i was tripping out so badly. mike made it worse by going insane on whatever the fuck he took.
other then the discusting drugs, i had a fun night. i feel oblisgated to take care of my friends when we are in a possition that something could go wrong. im like the mom all the time. sometimes i hate it.
i liked the part when i tried to get perry to be a motivational speaker to dan and tell him he can get off cocaine. that was funny, jayd thought it was hillarious then i told him today.
im out of cigarettes and im already fending for one so badly. i really want to quit but its really hard to find a reason. its comfort for me to what my life could still be or even what once was. stupid maybe.. but im sentimental in the weirdest ways. i just had a realization that every boy i have dated with the exception of marc is a smoker. and alot of the time i think of that to be a common ground with alot of the people i associate with. crazy.
i have to pee and sleep.