Forgive The Psuedo Rant
I guess I will never really understand the way people work. I have to wonder if when people retaliate and say awful things when they hurt if they feel bad for it later. Or if somewhere it hurts them at that very moment when they say it. Now I am not talking about when people actually hate someone or actually dislike them strongly, I am talking about the small petty stuff or the I am only being a shit cause I am hurting. From what I have noticed, if it is in the instance of the last two, people are generally too prideful to suck up and say "I'm sorry" or actually talk to one another like rational human beings (if that isn't an oxymoron in and of itself). They will go on avoiding the situation or just being spitefull or talk to everyone else about it except the person who really is the issue. Or if they do talk to the person they won't talk about the issue upfront. They want to skirt around it or talk in circles. I am not saying I am free of guilt on any of this, I am just making an observation. It irritates me and it ticks me off. I honestly wonder how many people could actually be friends if they would just swallow their pride, suck it up, and deal with the issues. Get closure. I guess some of this is comming from something I need at the moment. Maybe, maybe not. I know most of this is just sheer curiosity. I have observed peoples behavior for years, I still stay oblivious in most areas, and I never have come to understand most of it. Ok, well thats it I guess. I want to thank those people who have sucked it up and faced shit. That's been happening and that makes me happy.
I guess in closing I just want to say, life is freaking short guys. It's too short. Go after what you want by any means possible. If it damages things, then fix it, but at least you will know. I do not regret the way I handled things these past three weeks, I never got what I wanted but at least I know now. NEVER settle!!! You don't have to. No matter what it is, your job, your feelings, your love life. C.S. Lewis says we have no right to happiness, I say thats a bunch of crap! We may not have a legal right but we deserve to be the absolute happiest we can be. Other people can play a role in that but it's up to you if you go after it or not. Don't run, don't hide, don't be a coward like I have for so many years. If you feel like something is too late, your probably wrong and even if your not you can't make those kinda of assumptions. I guess what I am trying to say is grab life by the balls and run with it. Ok, *sigh* now I am done.
I guess in closing I just want to say, life is freaking short guys. It's too short. Go after what you want by any means possible. If it damages things, then fix it, but at least you will know. I do not regret the way I handled things these past three weeks, I never got what I wanted but at least I know now. NEVER settle!!! You don't have to. No matter what it is, your job, your feelings, your love life. C.S. Lewis says we have no right to happiness, I say thats a bunch of crap! We may not have a legal right but we deserve to be the absolute happiest we can be. Other people can play a role in that but it's up to you if you go after it or not. Don't run, don't hide, don't be a coward like I have for so many years. If you feel like something is too late, your probably wrong and even if your not you can't make those kinda of assumptions. I guess what I am trying to say is grab life by the balls and run with it. Ok, *sigh* now I am done.