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I wish I could shake this feeling of being weighted down…this weekend has changed how I look at people..at vicky and david and kaci..at everyone..this was the test for me I think..to see if the ones I loved would be there for me when I needed them and I guess I am surprised..and disappointed and really scared..because I found only a few people
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As for your friends, try not to forget why you love them all in the first place. Maybe it feels like they don't care because they don't realize how much this is affecting you. Well, when we talked last night, you sound so together in your voice. Kind of like, I don't know, it was just any other day for you. If I hadn't read your journal I probably couldn't have ever guessed that anything was wrong. And maybe that was just because you don't know me as well as other people, but I couldn't help wonder if that's how you seem to the rest of your friends too. Like you don't want to show that you're vulnerable so you put on this calm, cool and collected façade when really you're just dying inside. I'm just wondering because I've pulled that one a few times. So if that really is the case, then maybe it's not that your friends don't care, it's just that they either don't realize how much is hurting or if they do know that, then maybe they just don't know what to do. If you're afraid of being open that's understandable, but I think it could help if you tried. People suprise me a lot with how much they understand and can relate to... you don't have to be alone. You can call me for anything. You're a wonderful girl and I'm sure that there's plenty of people out there ready and willing to help you if you just ask.
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