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[electricgunfire]

i do not know who i am..or who you are.
you don't either.

last night..was boring..there would be no point in re-capping it all.
the show was a show..at the venue..all the girls got pretty and flirted with the boys
and the boys flirted back..
even the ones that were taken.

david did
i did
oh well..

then we apartment hopped until we found someone to take pity on us and let us sleep.
we ended up sleeping at david's ex-girlfriend's house..which was..
i don't know
interesting i guess.

i am sick of not knowing things..
and i am afraid of there being another emily music for david
and me being just another princess kayla having no clue

and sometimes i am afraid that i am to arrogant for this..
i'm to smart..or charming.
or not being honest with anyone
and acting like someone else
i am not afraid of anyone anymore
i used to be easily intimidated and such but
i am starting to feel more and more like i just do not care about things
and it is making me distant.
i hate the feeling of not caring..but it envelops me.
bah..i am tired..i will sleep and this will all be gone.