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Raaaaarrrr. So. As most of you prolly know by now, I'm kind of obsessive about my body. I always have been. It's unhealthy and I know it (clap your hands? wow, that's deeply programmed) but it's all I've ever known. (Although, weird sidebar, I've never judged anyone else's body. Even when I was an anorexic teenager I was the first one to tell my female friends who were worried about their weight that no, they weren't fat, they were beautiful and too smart to be brainwashed by the mainstream media like this and oh my god I think I just got why most of my female friends were in love with me, whoops.)
So for the past two weeks my body has been turning on me and it's freaking me right the hell out. It started with simple wrist pain -- I figured it was from me twisting it in a closing door (it's a long story) and a basic ibuprofen and heat-cold regimen would fix it up. It'd get a little better as the day wore on, and then be a searing monster of pain if I'd sleep. Like, seriously, I'd have nightmares about my wrist being sawed off because of it. Then the pain spread, and both my wrists and my elbows hurt that bad. Soon it also overtook my ankles and my knees. And from then on it'd shift into combinations of any or all of those eight joints hurting, making it really difficult to do anything. It hurts to walk, it hurts to type. Bathing is a special brand of hell. I get too freaked out to sleep because of how bad everything hurts when I wake up (plus the nightmares I mentioned). Also I can't play video games not on the console. SADFACE.
Anyway. That's what's been up with me, that's why I've been gone. Wish me luck with getting better, I guess?
HOW ARE YOU DOING. I am at work and it will let me post entries but not read journals or communities :(
So for the past two weeks my body has been turning on me and it's freaking me right the hell out. It started with simple wrist pain -- I figured it was from me twisting it in a closing door (it's a long story) and a basic ibuprofen and heat-cold regimen would fix it up. It'd get a little better as the day wore on, and then be a searing monster of pain if I'd sleep. Like, seriously, I'd have nightmares about my wrist being sawed off because of it. Then the pain spread, and both my wrists and my elbows hurt that bad. Soon it also overtook my ankles and my knees. And from then on it'd shift into combinations of any or all of those eight joints hurting, making it really difficult to do anything. It hurts to walk, it hurts to type. Bathing is a special brand of hell. I get too freaked out to sleep because of how bad everything hurts when I wake up (plus the nightmares I mentioned). Also I can't play video games not on the console. SADFACE.
Anyway. That's what's been up with me, that's why I've been gone. Wish me luck with getting better, I guess?
HOW ARE YOU DOING. I am at work and it will let me post entries but not read journals or communities :(