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I've decided to knock out an easy class this summer, because I just want to get this degree done so I can start working on the Masters. But the class is in the day, five days a week, and I'll be balancing it with work, still at night, so for the month of June, I'm literally not going to have a single day off.
Why am I doing this? I know I need to but damn. This year has just been a mess. I don't think I'm going to get above a C for anything I've done this semester. I've lost all but maybe two of my IRL friends, Lover died, and I'm not feeling all ambitious like I did last year. Last year I was going to become a brilliant inventor/cult novelist by the time I was thirty, and I couldn't wait to take more classes and do more things. This year I just want to watch TV and eat all the time. I've even dropped my workout routine. The fuck is going on here?
It's not like I'm even unhappy? Relationship is good, work is good. I enjoy it when I watch TV and listen to music. I just don't know what's up. And it feels like every effort to make things better, it blows up and makes things worse.
Wow, sorry, this was supposed to be a quick "lol look at what June is gonna be like, god I'm dumb, right?" thing. I just wish I knew how to fix things.
Why am I doing this? I know I need to but damn. This year has just been a mess. I don't think I'm going to get above a C for anything I've done this semester. I've lost all but maybe two of my IRL friends, Lover died, and I'm not feeling all ambitious like I did last year. Last year I was going to become a brilliant inventor/cult novelist by the time I was thirty, and I couldn't wait to take more classes and do more things. This year I just want to watch TV and eat all the time. I've even dropped my workout routine. The fuck is going on here?
It's not like I'm even unhappy? Relationship is good, work is good. I enjoy it when I watch TV and listen to music. I just don't know what's up. And it feels like every effort to make things better, it blows up and makes things worse.
Wow, sorry, this was supposed to be a quick "lol look at what June is gonna be like, god I'm dumb, right?" thing. I just wish I knew how to fix things.