Dripping into orbit

[electricdruid]

LJ has not been saving my drafts, and this is part of the reason I haven't been updating lately. There are other reasons, too, of course. But I just want you guys to know that I value you and I read LJ every single day. Even though I'm not a frequent poster or a frequent commenter, this site is a big part of my social life. It's like going to a

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[electricdruid]

Yes, I totally agree with you. In real life I'm not usually that person who has a lot to say. I nod, I smile, I ask a pointed question or two- but none of this really translates well to internet comments. I do find FB a bit easier, since liking something is often similarly subtle, but I find that when I become friends with LJ people on FB, the dynamic of the LJ-relationship changes and the interaction tends to simply shifts to FB instead.

I am really proud of Ward- and of you!- for taking ownership for that kind of behavior and putting the work it. I know exactly how difficult it is, but it's so rewarding once you've done it and seen the results, and that's really all that's keeping me on track and putting in my own work.

That said, I am a firm believer that no one can change until they want to, and a lot of the time, the thing that holds people back from changing is that they THINK they want to, or they think that's what they're *supposed* to want, so they try and they fail over and over, and they think that means there's something wrong with them. One of the biggest issues I struggled with Ward with was trying to get him to understand that he isn't broken, or an inherently bad person. He just never got to that moment that sparked his brain to a new way of seeing things. It's not something that can be forced. You have to wait for it- but you have to be looking for it all the time. You have to prepare and be ready when it comes. I think it's hard to do that, because it can feel like you're putting in work every day of your life and not seeing progress, but it's not the kind of work that leads to progress.

I don't really know what I'm getting at here, haha.

Anyway, thank you for your well-wishes. It's Wednesday now and still no work from HR regarding Fiende. Hopefully we'll hear something by the end of today.