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My parents bid on a basket of stuff for someone expecting a baby girl and won it, for me.
How can I say I should give up my baby for adoption? I don't want anything in exchange ya know. My life will still be stressful and lonely and yadda yadda. It's just something I thought I heard some one say once that makes me think we are supposed to give her away.
And if we don't then what? Am I going to be a good mother? Because I can't keep any friendships and I've only had a couple relationships where a guy has treated me with respect. I messed up a lot as far as my family goes.
I hate crying while I'm pregnant. It feels sinful. Like when the vampires cry on true blood.
I'm just tired and worn out and feeling kinda sick from my inhaler.
I haven't talked to Chris in over 24 hours. It's weird. I'm almost like worried but as far as I have learned worrying about things only leaves more of a chance of them coming true.
I feel sick kind of. Like over heated and on the verge of getting a head cold. Having to need an inhaler scares me. Plus I lost like 10 pounds and even though every one says don't stress about it I can't help it. I don't starve my baby.
I gotta work an 8 hour shift again tomorrow.
I feel like I don't ever really get a dy off because every day off I have a Dr. appt. or laundry or grocery shoping. I don't want a life of only work. I can't live like that.
Maybe I have winter blues. Idk but I don't like this feeling. Aren't I supposed to be overwhelmed with joy? I'm supposed to have a car and a work schedule that doesn't kill me and a place thats my own or that I share with the person Im having a baby with.
Ah I feel a lot better getting all that out but still kind of blah.
Time to go blow my nose and maybe eat something so I don't conciously feel the medicine from the inhaler running through me.
....lomao the mood icon fo awake is perfect. lol. i laughed out loud for real.
How can I say I should give up my baby for adoption? I don't want anything in exchange ya know. My life will still be stressful and lonely and yadda yadda. It's just something I thought I heard some one say once that makes me think we are supposed to give her away.
And if we don't then what? Am I going to be a good mother? Because I can't keep any friendships and I've only had a couple relationships where a guy has treated me with respect. I messed up a lot as far as my family goes.
I hate crying while I'm pregnant. It feels sinful. Like when the vampires cry on true blood.
I'm just tired and worn out and feeling kinda sick from my inhaler.
I haven't talked to Chris in over 24 hours. It's weird. I'm almost like worried but as far as I have learned worrying about things only leaves more of a chance of them coming true.
I feel sick kind of. Like over heated and on the verge of getting a head cold. Having to need an inhaler scares me. Plus I lost like 10 pounds and even though every one says don't stress about it I can't help it. I don't starve my baby.
I gotta work an 8 hour shift again tomorrow.
I feel like I don't ever really get a dy off because every day off I have a Dr. appt. or laundry or grocery shoping. I don't want a life of only work. I can't live like that.
Maybe I have winter blues. Idk but I don't like this feeling. Aren't I supposed to be overwhelmed with joy? I'm supposed to have a car and a work schedule that doesn't kill me and a place thats my own or that I share with the person Im having a baby with.
Ah I feel a lot better getting all that out but still kind of blah.
Time to go blow my nose and maybe eat something so I don't conciously feel the medicine from the inhaler running through me.
....lomao the mood icon fo awake is perfect. lol. i laughed out loud for real.