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so through a series of unfortuante events, i was unable to make it back to pittsburgh.
stupid schedules. why does everything have to be scheduled?
i have come to realize that i am an asshole when i am lonely and upset.
i'll add that one to the evergrowing, already really long list of whats wrong with me.
i miss chris. thats about it.
i wish i had days during the week, fuck even weeks off to see him. always being in avon kills me. all these bad things run throuhg my head and i end staying up til 7 in the morning until i can convience myself that once again, i am just overrecating. took longer this time since i just didnt feel like i was.\
okay, so i stopped updating about 10 minutes ago when lindsey from work called. she wants me to work her 10am-5pm shift. hell yes i will work for you. why the fuck would you want to close?
so i called the store, told them about the shift changed and did something COMPLETELY out of my nature.
i had talked to eric about the shift chnge so i hold him that working late nights is really getting to me. i'm getting sick, well already am sick, i'm phyiscally drain from that and work so late 3, 4, 5 nights a week. so i simply told him that i was not going to be able to make it to work at four, there was no way. i said i need just a few hours to myself, take lots of medicine and clear my head for 10am tomorrow.
and he said okay.
stupid schedules. why does everything have to be scheduled?
i have come to realize that i am an asshole when i am lonely and upset.
i'll add that one to the evergrowing, already really long list of whats wrong with me.
i miss chris. thats about it.
i wish i had days during the week, fuck even weeks off to see him. always being in avon kills me. all these bad things run throuhg my head and i end staying up til 7 in the morning until i can convience myself that once again, i am just overrecating. took longer this time since i just didnt feel like i was.\
okay, so i stopped updating about 10 minutes ago when lindsey from work called. she wants me to work her 10am-5pm shift. hell yes i will work for you. why the fuck would you want to close?
so i called the store, told them about the shift changed and did something COMPLETELY out of my nature.
i had talked to eric about the shift chnge so i hold him that working late nights is really getting to me. i'm getting sick, well already am sick, i'm phyiscally drain from that and work so late 3, 4, 5 nights a week. so i simply told him that i was not going to be able to make it to work at four, there was no way. i said i need just a few hours to myself, take lots of medicine and clear my head for 10am tomorrow.
and he said okay.