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So there was Xmas,wooo yaaay etce tc,having my brother and sister round for xmas day was fun,they make me laugh SO much when theyre together.Boxing day was something different entirely.I have the most beliigerent 10 year old neice EVER.Its actually shocking what a pain in the backside she is.Managed to make it a 'her' day rather than a family day.
Went shopping the other day with a girl from work and we were arguing about what bra size she was because I didnt believe she was DD.So we bahaved like 13 year olds and went to House of Fraser to get measured,GOOD LORD.I refuse to believe what they told me.I do NOT have jordanic proportions and so thoroughly ignored them.Some people like the whole 'the bigger the better' type thing.I am not one of these people.
Went to Curran's last night for a coctail soiree at her house where I drank toooooooo much champagne,followed by some whiskey (not very coctailish I know),se on the beach,malibu,vodka...and then finished it off with some bailey's.And I didnt feel that drunk I honestly didnt.Then went to Bagatti's and had some Southern Comfort and a glass of wine.I then left because I had to meet some other friends.Take note I hadnt actually eaten anything all day.
I went to the Sheep to meet my girlies,FINALLY got to meet Natalie's boyfriend after a year and a half!I then tried to repair myself by drinking water but then cancelled it all out by switching to Southern Comfort.Hell of a hangover Ive got at the moment I can tell you1
'He' was there,and I spontaneously burst into a 5 minute bout of tears because he was nice to me,he confuses me so damn much!I wish I could stop thinking about him.I found out his new girlfriend has moved in with him.She was there last night but I can't remember that bit.Apparently my friends launched into the whole 'well you're prettier than her' routine that friends are required to do.Except it really doesnt make you feel better being told you're pretty but alone lol.I miss summer,despite the fact it was simultaneously my most successful and most car crash like.
Not sure what Im doing tonight,I was meant to go to The Sheep again (theyve got a kids tv fancy dress theme) but the people I would have gone with have pulled out.
Im VERY excited about 2007,I have a really good feeling about it.For years now I keep saying this and something happens to drag my year down but this month Ive felt less angsty about things.Like my head has bit of perspective for once.I feel like Ive been released.Ii think the turning point was when I spoke to Holly about the verdict concerning Jessie's father.I was so FURIOUS and made it my focus,then she said she was upset but more upset that Jessie was dead.Pure and simple.Aside from circumstances and drama,just the fact she was dead.And it suddenly made immense sense and let me grieve.I still hate him and feel such sadness for her family but I've let go of so much of the anger Ive had for the past few years and I feel considerably changed.
I dont always tell people how much they mean to be throughout it all as well.Sometimes I dont realise how much people are there for me until I look back.I've realised a few things this week that I was quite blind to at the time.But missed oppurtunities are just a learning curve.Im not going to make the same mistakes in 2007.
So...my new years resolutions (ive decided to make them for once)are...
* to believe men when they say they like me.To stop being so cautious with the special ones and reckless with the wasters.
*To stop feeling guilty when I let people down.I have no malice behind my actions,I regret that I make people feel underappreciated at times but I wont apologize twice for the same thing.
*To try and sort out my studies.Im not sure yet whether this means giving up uni or sticking it out.But im not scared of the decision any more.
*To save....and actually leave it alone
*To accept I have a personality prone to depression but to not let it engulf and define me
HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE.I hope you all have a fantastic night and an amazing 2007!
Went shopping the other day with a girl from work and we were arguing about what bra size she was because I didnt believe she was DD.So we bahaved like 13 year olds and went to House of Fraser to get measured,GOOD LORD.I refuse to believe what they told me.I do NOT have jordanic proportions and so thoroughly ignored them.Some people like the whole 'the bigger the better' type thing.I am not one of these people.
Went to Curran's last night for a coctail soiree at her house where I drank toooooooo much champagne,followed by some whiskey (not very coctailish I know),se on the beach,malibu,vodka...and then finished it off with some bailey's.And I didnt feel that drunk I honestly didnt.Then went to Bagatti's and had some Southern Comfort and a glass of wine.I then left because I had to meet some other friends.Take note I hadnt actually eaten anything all day.
I went to the Sheep to meet my girlies,FINALLY got to meet Natalie's boyfriend after a year and a half!I then tried to repair myself by drinking water but then cancelled it all out by switching to Southern Comfort.Hell of a hangover Ive got at the moment I can tell you1
'He' was there,and I spontaneously burst into a 5 minute bout of tears because he was nice to me,he confuses me so damn much!I wish I could stop thinking about him.I found out his new girlfriend has moved in with him.She was there last night but I can't remember that bit.Apparently my friends launched into the whole 'well you're prettier than her' routine that friends are required to do.Except it really doesnt make you feel better being told you're pretty but alone lol.I miss summer,despite the fact it was simultaneously my most successful and most car crash like.
Not sure what Im doing tonight,I was meant to go to The Sheep again (theyve got a kids tv fancy dress theme) but the people I would have gone with have pulled out.
Im VERY excited about 2007,I have a really good feeling about it.For years now I keep saying this and something happens to drag my year down but this month Ive felt less angsty about things.Like my head has bit of perspective for once.I feel like Ive been released.Ii think the turning point was when I spoke to Holly about the verdict concerning Jessie's father.I was so FURIOUS and made it my focus,then she said she was upset but more upset that Jessie was dead.Pure and simple.Aside from circumstances and drama,just the fact she was dead.And it suddenly made immense sense and let me grieve.I still hate him and feel such sadness for her family but I've let go of so much of the anger Ive had for the past few years and I feel considerably changed.
I dont always tell people how much they mean to be throughout it all as well.Sometimes I dont realise how much people are there for me until I look back.I've realised a few things this week that I was quite blind to at the time.But missed oppurtunities are just a learning curve.Im not going to make the same mistakes in 2007.
So...my new years resolutions (ive decided to make them for once)are...
* to believe men when they say they like me.To stop being so cautious with the special ones and reckless with the wasters.
*To stop feeling guilty when I let people down.I have no malice behind my actions,I regret that I make people feel underappreciated at times but I wont apologize twice for the same thing.
*To try and sort out my studies.Im not sure yet whether this means giving up uni or sticking it out.But im not scared of the decision any more.
*To save....and actually leave it alone
*To accept I have a personality prone to depression but to not let it engulf and define me
HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE.I hope you all have a fantastic night and an amazing 2007!