Fic: Hope Series: 2 parts
I Hope You Know:
I hope you know as I sit by your bed, reading you these words of comfort, care, and love from another that it is because I’m too afraid to tell you my own.
I hope you know that the only reason I was still whole was because of your blue eyes -so pale now yet still so strong.
Eyes, that no matter how clouded they have started to become still fill me with such strength and love.
I hope you know I will be lost without you.
That I will be broken without you.
That I will miss you.
That I love you.
Now why couldn’t I say any of that?
Why can’t I reach out and take your hand & kiss your fingers, mumbling words of love and comfort like I want to?
Why am I just walking away?
I hope at least you know.
I Know, I Remember, I Hope:
That minute you turned from me.
That minute I just reached out and patted your back.
That minute I just left the letter for later.
That minute was the last time I felt any semblance of peace.
I know that now.
I know that now because you have walked back into my life.
I know that now even though calm has come back with the ending of this war, peace has not.
I know that now.
That you are back.
Now that you are whole again.
Now that your eyes are blue and clear again.
I know that now --
I can truly breath again.
I remember now what peace is.
I remember now everything I felt as I used to look into your eyes over my cup or my cards.
I remember now the smile that bloomed on my face and the hope in my heart as you would look back at me.
But I still remember what I couldn’t say.
And I still remember why --
I still feel afraid to tell you.
I hope at least you know.
I hope you know as I sit by your bed, reading you these words of comfort, care, and love from another that it is because I’m too afraid to tell you my own.
I hope you know that the only reason I was still whole was because of your blue eyes -so pale now yet still so strong.
Eyes, that no matter how clouded they have started to become still fill me with such strength and love.
I hope you know I will be lost without you.
That I will be broken without you.
That I will miss you.
That I love you.
Now why couldn’t I say any of that?
Why can’t I reach out and take your hand & kiss your fingers, mumbling words of love and comfort like I want to?
Why am I just walking away?
I hope at least you know.
I Know, I Remember, I Hope:
That minute you turned from me.
That minute I just reached out and patted your back.
That minute I just left the letter for later.
That minute was the last time I felt any semblance of peace.
I know that now.
I know that now because you have walked back into my life.
I know that now even though calm has come back with the ending of this war, peace has not.
I know that now.
That you are back.
Now that you are whole again.
Now that your eyes are blue and clear again.
I know that now --
I can truly breath again.
I remember now what peace is.
I remember now everything I felt as I used to look into your eyes over my cup or my cards.
I remember now the smile that bloomed on my face and the hope in my heart as you would look back at me.
But I still remember what I couldn’t say.
And I still remember why --
I still feel afraid to tell you.
I hope at least you know.