May 31, 2009 23:53
i never asked to fall in love with you
i never asked for you to tumble into my world.
life works that way, unexpectedly.
i never thought i'd feel the way i felt when i watched you leave.
those tears i cried came out of nowhere.
even through depression, i never felt that sort of sadness before.
like my heart had been torn from my chest.
&& never had i felt happiness like the day you came home.
unable to sleep, unable to sit still, anticipating the moment i saw you again.
if i could, I'd bottle that feeling up && share it with everyone.
the way you looked at me; no one's ever made me feel that way before;
that special.
you never have to smile because your eyes really do all the talking.
and boy, do i love it when your eyes shine.
all i want to do is make you happy; but i rarely see that sparkle anymore, it's died.
there are three words i hate, more than anything in this world.
too many people abuse them && even more don't say them when they should.
three words, that can't even fully explain what i feel && how i feel about you.
three words that can only briefly capture && attempt to summarize a moment.
a connection, an embrace, a kiss, together into three words; one moment.
how do you find the words that describe that feeling,
when your heart beats a little faster each time i see you...?
When butterflies race around in my stomach && the day creeps by,
as I anxiously await to hear your voice?
That as silly as it sounds, your 'morning baby' texts are what brings the biggest smile to my face...?
In the beginning, things are different.
Every embrace is special, everything is new && wonderful.
WHY should that have to change?
I still cherish every moment that we spend together.
Our kisses make the stress of the day go away.
Your hugs still make the world stop && protect me from my fears.
You're the only person who's protected me from my nightmares,
You're the only person who i feel completely comfortable in my own skin.
That i can be completely open with && know that you won't judge me because i'm scared of the dark, the unknown, or the future.
You know all sides of me, the good, the bad && (unfortunately) the ugly.
But i know that when i look into your eyes; that you care && even though my fears may be silly, you assure me that you'll be there.
Being in your arms lets me know that things will be okay.
That maybe things are still going to be difficult, but nothing comes easy...
But at least, things will be okay in the end.
That life has silly ways of working things out.
"listen to your heart. before you tell him goodbye."