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I don't know what's going on right now.
I've got cuts all over my hand but there isn't any pain.
I think my mind and body are in shock.
I think this is what it's like to be able to really feel emotions.
It's been a long time, old friend.
My hands have been dry recently and I don't know why.
I rubbed my knees a lot last night.
I moved around a lot today and got tired faster than I ever have before.
Looks like I'm quitting.
I'm quitting a lot of things right now.
There's still something in the back of my mind that I can literally feel myself not letting get into the point where I think about it.
I understand a lot more now about people.
I just.
Don't know what to do.
Where do I go from here.
Where am I?
Who am I?
I really don't fucking know.
I hope to god this is the shittiest part of my life because if it's the best I'm going to need to kill someone.
I like some of the people I know though.
Probably more than I should.
But despite my shitty memory I'll always think of them.
I sound like I'm fucking going away or something.
I guess I sort of am.
I need to figure out how I actually feel about people because it's now under my control.
So don't expect any repeats in behavior.
I mean look at this.
Its weird as fuck.
Maybe I'm still trashzored.
MMMwhatevs.
I've got cuts all over my hand but there isn't any pain.
I think my mind and body are in shock.
I think this is what it's like to be able to really feel emotions.
It's been a long time, old friend.
My hands have been dry recently and I don't know why.
I rubbed my knees a lot last night.
I moved around a lot today and got tired faster than I ever have before.
Looks like I'm quitting.
I'm quitting a lot of things right now.
There's still something in the back of my mind that I can literally feel myself not letting get into the point where I think about it.
I understand a lot more now about people.
I just.
Don't know what to do.
Where do I go from here.
Where am I?
Who am I?
I really don't fucking know.
I hope to god this is the shittiest part of my life because if it's the best I'm going to need to kill someone.
I like some of the people I know though.
Probably more than I should.
But despite my shitty memory I'll always think of them.
I sound like I'm fucking going away or something.
I guess I sort of am.
I need to figure out how I actually feel about people because it's now under my control.
So don't expect any repeats in behavior.
I mean look at this.
Its weird as fuck.
Maybe I'm still trashzored.
MMMwhatevs.