And all I want to do is hope, just as I saw the light and nothin else.
What's exactly happening to me?
I guess I've never felt so happy for months.
I can't feel that heavy thing over my head right now...the "thing" that used to scare me, to make me cry and feel powerless. I'm finding myself again.
I don't hate the two of them anymore. Marta and Sasy are no longer big friends of mine, just friends. Just people filling everyday of my life. I'm not jealous anymore, I don't feel like they left me behind. Better off, I know they did. But it's ok, I got it, and it's not making me cry.
Even though they go out together without me, even if they plan their Saturday nights without me, I'm not mad @ them any longer. They were my drug, now I'm out of this tunnel and I can see the light.
I'm in love with him, no doubt about it. It's just a matter of days to decide whether I'm happy or mad at him. Poor Gianlu xD But he deserves this, oh yes. He's been making me crazy since last Christmas, with ups and downs and push-and-pulls @_@ And these are the consequences u.u°
Anyway, I wish i could meet him next summer. That would be the greatest gift for my 18th birthday ever.
(Despite the fact I'm turnin' 18 within two weeks, not in August LOL)
What else?
I'm starting to study to get my driving license in a week.
I'm listening to some amazing music I found and i love it.
I'm having my new I-Pod in my own hands within two weeks. YAY!
I've found some old ff of mine inside my pc O.O Posting them asap.
I started watching Doctor Who and...I think he's amazing ♥
You may understand the reasons why I'm happy right now. xD
p.s. Eledh, dear, you inspired this entry. Thank you.
I guess I've never felt so happy for months.
I can't feel that heavy thing over my head right now...the "thing" that used to scare me, to make me cry and feel powerless. I'm finding myself again.
I don't hate the two of them anymore. Marta and Sasy are no longer big friends of mine, just friends. Just people filling everyday of my life. I'm not jealous anymore, I don't feel like they left me behind. Better off, I know they did. But it's ok, I got it, and it's not making me cry.
Even though they go out together without me, even if they plan their Saturday nights without me, I'm not mad @ them any longer. They were my drug, now I'm out of this tunnel and I can see the light.
I'm in love with him, no doubt about it. It's just a matter of days to decide whether I'm happy or mad at him. Poor Gianlu xD But he deserves this, oh yes. He's been making me crazy since last Christmas, with ups and downs and push-and-pulls @_@ And these are the consequences u.u°
Anyway, I wish i could meet him next summer. That would be the greatest gift for my 18th birthday ever.
(Despite the fact I'm turnin' 18 within two weeks, not in August LOL)
What else?
I'm starting to study to get my driving license in a week.
I'm listening to some amazing music I found and i love it.
I'm having my new I-Pod in my own hands within two weeks. YAY!
I've found some old ff of mine inside my pc O.O Posting them asap.
I started watching Doctor Who and...I think he's amazing ♥
You may understand the reasons why I'm happy right now. xD
p.s. Eledh, dear, you inspired this entry. Thank you.