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What a disaster
I feel like crying
So, I went out with my mom today, like we've been doing every month for a while
First thing she does is order a glass of wine Though she seemed rather drunk to begin with
So, gently, I tell her that perhaps alcohol isn't the best thing for an alcoholic
She snaps at me, and I drop it for the moment
As the meal continues, she keeps ordering drinks So much for quitting
So finally, I got up the courage and told her that I wasn't going to move back with her
Ever
So then she yelled at me and told me that she wasn't going to help with my rent not that she helped much anyways anymore
That's when I slipped up that I wouldn't need it anymore, that I had moved in with one of my friends, Jay
Well, she flipped out, and called me a whore, and leaned over and slapped me hard across the cheek. It still stings even now...
What is up with my mom and slapping people in public?
I got up from the table and stormed out of the resturant, walking the full mile back to Jay's house
She didn't even come after me
So now I'm here, sitting by myself Waiting for Sean or Jay, or someone to come home
I'm through with trying to deal with her
I was a fool to think she was going to change
I want to cut
I am not like her
I feel like crying
So, I went out with my mom today, like we've been doing every month for a while
First thing she does is order a glass of wine Though she seemed rather drunk to begin with
So, gently, I tell her that perhaps alcohol isn't the best thing for an alcoholic
She snaps at me, and I drop it for the moment
As the meal continues, she keeps ordering drinks So much for quitting
So finally, I got up the courage and told her that I wasn't going to move back with her
Ever
So then she yelled at me and told me that she wasn't going to help with my rent not that she helped much anyways anymore
That's when I slipped up that I wouldn't need it anymore, that I had moved in with one of my friends, Jay
Well, she flipped out, and called me a whore, and leaned over and slapped me hard across the cheek. It still stings even now...
What is up with my mom and slapping people in public?
I got up from the table and stormed out of the resturant, walking the full mile back to Jay's house
She didn't even come after me
So now I'm here, sitting by myself Waiting for Sean or Jay, or someone to come home
I'm through with trying to deal with her
I was a fool to think she was going to change
I want to cut
I am not like her