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I'm feeling better. That's a plus. I got my federal returns back. That's another plus. Tomorrow morning my bank account will be sitting at 1700 dollars...and then some. In two weeks...it'll be 2000. I'm excited. Next week, the five of us are booking our suite. I'm excited even more for that. I just hate to see this bank account that I've built up slowly deplete, but I have to remind myself that this is why I made it in the first place. It's going to be a blast. I've lost a little more weight. I'm honestly getting really tired of the taste of grapefruit, but it's working so I'll keep downing it. Ick. After Vegas, I plan on getting a Mazda...if the one I had in mind is still on the lot. It's so beautiful. If not, then I might go get either a Honda or Toyota. Something that's not going to guzzle gas since I will be on the road all the fucking time. I do love driving, and I've mastered the one hand wheel driving technique. Yes. Sometimes I take the long way when I'm driving just for the hell of it.
Everyone seems to be getting along good and that's awesome. That's going to add to the greatness of Vegas. Shanna, Matt, myself, and Steph have to buy our plane tickets together. That should be done this month too. Plane tickets are fucking outrageous as far as the price goes. I can't believe it. It costs more than our room. Jessica is booking her plane ticket on her own since she's flying from Chicago.
You know, I've been listening to "If You Ever Did Believe" for the last two days, and I watched the video a few times today, and it really reminds me WHY I fell in love with Stevie in the first place. It brought back the magic. It sort of erases all the other songs I know and just takes their places, and it sits in your head. And she was so beautiful and graceful in that video. It was just wonderful. I miss being 13 and adoring her again. I still can't believe I got nearly three hours of conversation and drinks and food with my idol, then walked her back to her hotel along with Matt and Shanna. She is a person, and it's good to know that. I can't believe that some people hate her just because THEY stalked her...THEY burned their bridges with their lies and schemes...and she FOUND out and had an opinion about them. That's not HER fault. It's YOUR fault. You don't hate her. If you did...you wouldn't still be wanting to stalk her around the country. Interesting, hmm. I'd be careful. Everyone knows about you now and they are WATCHING YOU closely to see exactly how you are. You don't even know. It's so funny, actually. And it's funny that you've been probing for information from people. I don't care. Get a life.
I don't want to go to work. I want to tell Janet LaFave, "Fuck you, bitch." But I can't until after Vegas. I should actually start job hunting now, though...because job hunting is a hard thing for me. I hate it. I dread it. And I never seem to get the results I want, unlike other people around me. Maybe I need to stop being so picky. I don't know. Anyways, I went to Sheila Friday, and I said, "I am starting school in the summer...and I need to know NOW whether you can work around my schedule or whether I need to find another job, because I am going to be taking a full load." That's right. I'm not wasting my scholarship and 4.0 on two classes a week or whatever. Nope. If I'm gonna do it, I'm gonna do it full throttle. That's how I am. She said it would depend and she would have to see my schedule. I need to call Lisa and ask her about her immunization shots. I dread getting those. Ew. Ouch. Dammit.
Life is on track and it feels good. It feels good to laugh at the silly, pointless people. And it feels good to know that you're proving others wrong, and then others right. It's good to have faith in yourself and know that when the time comes, you do what you have to do...that you can't just shove yourself into something you're not ready for. These last few years have been life changing and made me grow up a lot. So I really wouldn't change too much of it.
Anyways, I gotta go to bed. Shout out to Stephanie for having some backbone and Jessica for being my hero.
Everyone seems to be getting along good and that's awesome. That's going to add to the greatness of Vegas. Shanna, Matt, myself, and Steph have to buy our plane tickets together. That should be done this month too. Plane tickets are fucking outrageous as far as the price goes. I can't believe it. It costs more than our room. Jessica is booking her plane ticket on her own since she's flying from Chicago.
You know, I've been listening to "If You Ever Did Believe" for the last two days, and I watched the video a few times today, and it really reminds me WHY I fell in love with Stevie in the first place. It brought back the magic. It sort of erases all the other songs I know and just takes their places, and it sits in your head. And she was so beautiful and graceful in that video. It was just wonderful. I miss being 13 and adoring her again. I still can't believe I got nearly three hours of conversation and drinks and food with my idol, then walked her back to her hotel along with Matt and Shanna. She is a person, and it's good to know that. I can't believe that some people hate her just because THEY stalked her...THEY burned their bridges with their lies and schemes...and she FOUND out and had an opinion about them. That's not HER fault. It's YOUR fault. You don't hate her. If you did...you wouldn't still be wanting to stalk her around the country. Interesting, hmm. I'd be careful. Everyone knows about you now and they are WATCHING YOU closely to see exactly how you are. You don't even know. It's so funny, actually. And it's funny that you've been probing for information from people. I don't care. Get a life.
I don't want to go to work. I want to tell Janet LaFave, "Fuck you, bitch." But I can't until after Vegas. I should actually start job hunting now, though...because job hunting is a hard thing for me. I hate it. I dread it. And I never seem to get the results I want, unlike other people around me. Maybe I need to stop being so picky. I don't know. Anyways, I went to Sheila Friday, and I said, "I am starting school in the summer...and I need to know NOW whether you can work around my schedule or whether I need to find another job, because I am going to be taking a full load." That's right. I'm not wasting my scholarship and 4.0 on two classes a week or whatever. Nope. If I'm gonna do it, I'm gonna do it full throttle. That's how I am. She said it would depend and she would have to see my schedule. I need to call Lisa and ask her about her immunization shots. I dread getting those. Ew. Ouch. Dammit.
Life is on track and it feels good. It feels good to laugh at the silly, pointless people. And it feels good to know that you're proving others wrong, and then others right. It's good to have faith in yourself and know that when the time comes, you do what you have to do...that you can't just shove yourself into something you're not ready for. These last few years have been life changing and made me grow up a lot. So I really wouldn't change too much of it.
Anyways, I gotta go to bed. Shout out to Stephanie for having some backbone and Jessica for being my hero.