guy=confusion+drama+lies = life
You see one thing on myspace. then you confront someone about it, of course the deny it.
whats the truth of it?
hell if i know.
Now i am fluttered with emotion waiting on time to pass so i can talk to a certain person.
at 11:30ish witch right now its only 8:00 so i have plenty of time to just ramble on about
the wonderful bullshit i get to deal with. the shit i have to take. and the shit i get to complain
about.
Having a steady boyfriend is now one of americas wonders of life.
how can you do it?
I have no idea, all this is is ups and downs arguing and laughter.
some point in time i cant bare to stand him, the next i just want to
be held in his arms. but not only do i deal with the venture of emotions,
i do have the fabulous emotions.
and on the other half the dreadful ones.
which at times seem to shine more then the fabulous side.
Who dosnt want there good side always to be sparkling.
i know for sure that i do, 24/7 and i want my relationship to
be the same as for that matter. I know that i fuck things up
quite often, but in my other hand i end up making things
radiant with happiness when i try hard. i just want this to
end. this feeling of doubt, anxiousness, alone, depressed.
your not a mess bubba. you never were , my desicons are. okay?
sometimes i wish i never made myself get into this mess.
dig myslef down this hole.
i just want out ,
i want to make desicons without taking it into consideration.
i want to hang out with freinds. i want to talk to him when i want
i want to just be living a happy life /
i want my cake and eat it too.
is that so much to ask?
is it a hassle of emotions once again?
.....
.....
.....
i dont know, and i just want things to go back in place.
go back to how it was in the begging. Almost like
starting over, making the right choices. Putting my
foot down, staying in touch with my best friends.
Not letting them slip out of my fingers.
I want to cry right now, wake up with everything
back like it use to be. Only better .
whats the truth of it?
hell if i know.
Now i am fluttered with emotion waiting on time to pass so i can talk to a certain person.
at 11:30ish witch right now its only 8:00 so i have plenty of time to just ramble on about
the wonderful bullshit i get to deal with. the shit i have to take. and the shit i get to complain
about.
Having a steady boyfriend is now one of americas wonders of life.
how can you do it?
I have no idea, all this is is ups and downs arguing and laughter.
some point in time i cant bare to stand him, the next i just want to
be held in his arms. but not only do i deal with the venture of emotions,
i do have the fabulous emotions.
and on the other half the dreadful ones.
which at times seem to shine more then the fabulous side.
Who dosnt want there good side always to be sparkling.
i know for sure that i do, 24/7 and i want my relationship to
be the same as for that matter. I know that i fuck things up
quite often, but in my other hand i end up making things
radiant with happiness when i try hard. i just want this to
end. this feeling of doubt, anxiousness, alone, depressed.
your not a mess bubba. you never were , my desicons are. okay?
sometimes i wish i never made myself get into this mess.
dig myslef down this hole.
i just want out ,
i want to make desicons without taking it into consideration.
i want to hang out with freinds. i want to talk to him when i want
i want to just be living a happy life /
i want my cake and eat it too.
is that so much to ask?
is it a hassle of emotions once again?
.....
.....
.....
i dont know, and i just want things to go back in place.
go back to how it was in the begging. Almost like
starting over, making the right choices. Putting my
foot down, staying in touch with my best friends.
Not letting them slip out of my fingers.
I want to cry right now, wake up with everything
back like it use to be. Only better .