What's so important?
Sometimes I feel like I will never have the chance to "do it when things slow down." Whatever IT may be, I always tend to put it off until I'm done with my current show or until after the next camp session. I feel like my life has been reduced to a series of camp sessions and theatrical productions. I have nothing left that shapes my life- me- into something well-rounded.
I feel pathetic and weak for not being able to force myself to take the time to go to church, work out, join a choir, volunteer somewhere, ride my bike, visit my family, read books, etc. It just seems that all of these things that I value so much have gone down the tubes in order for me to maintain my "careers" - and I still use the term loosely.
If you strip away theater and camp, my life is static. I hate that. I need progression, interaction, growth, knowledge, activity beyond the required.
Will I eventually give up on my "lesser" values or will I somehow manage to set-up a schedule for myself that incorporates everything? It's very hard to say right now. I look at my life and I see the possibility of being able to do everything in August, after camp, when I have no shows and nothing else to hold me back. Of course, that's when I'll be getting a regular job and realizing that I have a whole new excuse for not doing the things I claim are so important to me.
I feel pathetic and weak for not being able to force myself to take the time to go to church, work out, join a choir, volunteer somewhere, ride my bike, visit my family, read books, etc. It just seems that all of these things that I value so much have gone down the tubes in order for me to maintain my "careers" - and I still use the term loosely.
If you strip away theater and camp, my life is static. I hate that. I need progression, interaction, growth, knowledge, activity beyond the required.
Will I eventually give up on my "lesser" values or will I somehow manage to set-up a schedule for myself that incorporates everything? It's very hard to say right now. I look at my life and I see the possibility of being able to do everything in August, after camp, when I have no shows and nothing else to hold me back. Of course, that's when I'll be getting a regular job and realizing that I have a whole new excuse for not doing the things I claim are so important to me.