serenity now

[elbomac]

It is amazing to me how much I am affected but not being in control. I have noted this about myself in the past, but it is now brought home to me on an almost daily basis, and if I were in a more analytical or detached place, I would probably enjoy pointing out the neat parallels that are popping up all over the place. Right now, it feels like there is nothing in my life over which I can effect change, which is not a comfortable place for me. I have been trying to come up with strategies to deal with this (because while Xanax is currently effective, I don't know how feasible it is long term).

I am safe and well. Waiting for my final family member to check in from Sandy. Breathing deeply. Taking a break from TV. Trying to take good care.