fuck you life

[elayissex]

i cant stop crying, my eyes feel like their on fire. i feel nothing, apsolutely nothing. i talked to scott, and mostly the truth was told - ive done nothing...hes depressed, he feels like he has nothing in life...im trying so hard, im trying so fucking hard. i feel like a mess, i cant concentrate - cant think, i dont want to be anywhere. i just

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[clikclik___bang]

listen to me, and listen to me good. its okay to cry, and i dont know what scott said to you, and why you are so upset, but if he isnt treating you like a princess then he can fuck off. if he doesnt treat you with respect, and treats you how you WANT TO BE TREATED then in the long run it wont work out anyway. he may have had his good moments, and made you feel amazing. and then he probably acted like he didnt care and shit. because ive been through it, and its not worth the pain in the end. its just not. i know im not helping, and am probably pissing you off because when people said this to me about chris i would get angry. but then i woke up and realized that i deserved better. at first i didnt WANT better, but eventually you realize you need better. so scott can shove a dick in his face, because sometimes i wonder if he is just afraid of love, or tries to act tough. because if he is, then he isnt mature enough to be in this relationship. i personally think you'll get him back, but is getting him back what you really want if things dont change? this probably made no sense, but i tried. and i love you damnit

[elayissex]

I really understand essa, but theres more to it also - im understanding things now, and its not as bad as i beleived it was. he didnt do anything last night to make me feel amazeing - but he told me the truth, and i know why things are happening the way they are now. he wont take me back, so dont worry about that - because right now, he doesnt feel any emotion at all - but i do want him, every bit of me does - though right now, i cannot have him.