what a disaster
i cant explain today. happy thanksgiveing, to all of you. i hope your all happy, i truely - mean that. Today were suppose to think of the things were thankful for, i would give anything..to go back a year. Back to when, i had alot to be thankful for. but i do have some, im thankful for the people who love me, and will never hurt me. Thank you Autumn, for being there - always. Thank you josh, i love you - for always listening to what i have to say. Thank you a few people on here, like bianca & essa, even if we grow distant - a part of my heart will always hold a place for you. Thank you hans, for being my big brother - and watching out for me..even though we call each other cunt, and douche - regularly, and people think were either A.going out or B. related - thanx to all the new people i have met..and all the old people i have left beind........& thank you scott,....for bringing me to life, when i needed you to....Thank you for the good times, and for the bad. And everything ive lost, and everything ive gained. i will not thank the feelings i have inside my head right now, i cannot be thankful for them - but maybe someday i will understand them. Thank you billy idol - for haveing a nice ass, back in the day. Thank you Oi, for running through my veins and being my push up - when i am down. Thank you Mr.daniels......for being there, when i needed you....
im not sure what will happen. im not sure i can be strong enough to let him fade into a memory and not remember the times he pulled my hair out of my eyes, and whipped the tears away from my cheek bones - when i cried. im not sure i can push it in a box....and lock it away...but i guess i have to learn to try......
Always