isnt she lovely

[elayissex]

im writeing a letter, to someone i once knew. this is the most akward thing ive ever done, and had my mind tell me to do. a gut feeling if you want to call it that. to write this kid, i grew up with..who is going into juvi, and will be there for thanksgiveing. just to let him know, that someone out there is thinking about him. i told my mom at dinner, that i want her to call and ask for his address there, and that i need to write him. that my mind, is telling me..to write this kid, who has attacked his dad, and sister - and seems to angry..and that me, I - can make him feel better. and i truely dont know why im getting this feeling. - i also feel as if things are going to be ok, i have a feeling everything will pass and be ok. i need to tell scott, what im thinking - to be affectionate..because ive realized, that lately..i am not showing affection - and either is he..and maybe that was why i wasnt..and maybe that is why he isnt - but what ever it is, i need to feel, i need to feel emotion, and tell him when i want to kiss him..to hold him..to touch his hair..to smell him..see his smile, ill be ok - im feeling akward. i feel like i just grasped something very deep, and i know whats going on.
i will always love you, with every bit of my mind..body..and soul
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Lydia