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I may seem like a portentious asshole, but I am really just a petty one who gravitates toward people who treat me like shit and selfishly shit all over anyone who actually cares. Because the manipulative, selfish, fucked-up ones who look for ANY reason to disown me are the people I end up loving, and they LOVE the power they have over me without ever loving ME at all. I would have done anything for you, dear friend, but you endlessly focused on my downfalls and mistakes instead of the insurmountable excess of love I consistently offer you. It's easier to hate than to love, isn't it? I wish I had that luxury. But you can't ruin me - I'm not worthless to anyone but you. And we are BOTH at fault for that.