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Ive decided now that Im saving up to go to LA for a week. Hopefully Dre can do the same,... but if not Ill go alone. I just really want to go. Im so sick of the Detroit life. heh. Theres just about nothing to do. One club on the weekends.... like 3 - 5 cool stores.... its very rare that a 'good' band comes here. Other than that and friends there isnt much left except to sit around and waste your life away. At least I can say Ive done some traveling and been through a lot of shit. Some fun, some painful, some fucks with ya, some is fuzzy... but it still beats sitting on your ass. Im still wanting to move. I doubt it will happen. It seems that Im stuck in this place for ever. Maybe that just goes to show I must not want it bad enough. If I want something bad enough I get it.... I would just love to pack up everything and go travel. Perhaps if I had a change of surroundings for a while and came back everything would be different. Maybe I would want to stay. It just seems like there is so much more opprotunity in California. Why is that? The one state that is suposed to drift off into the ocean. lol.
Im bored and I have a headache.
It kind of sucks knowing what I want for my future is so vast and unpredictable... I hope and wish and want for it to happen... but am I simply stuck in my dream world? Is this just false hopes that I havent let go of from childhood? I thought I out grew them all but ive always wanted this... What is it? Why cant I know?
I need to be complete....
Im bored and I have a headache.
It kind of sucks knowing what I want for my future is so vast and unpredictable... I hope and wish and want for it to happen... but am I simply stuck in my dream world? Is this just false hopes that I havent let go of from childhood? I thought I out grew them all but ive always wanted this... What is it? Why cant I know?
I need to be complete....