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Ahhh I can't stop thinking about this... It really shouldn't be a surprise to me anyways, it's just something I never want to deal with. I'm not sure what I'll do from here on out either, but it always seems like I'll have to take one extreme or the other, but I'm not sure how well it'll really work anyways. I really need something to consume my time and the only thing that I usually have taking up my time is just that, so it doesn't really work... Working tomorrow 2-10 which sucks, shit hours. I guess it's better than 5-10, I mean if you're gonna work shitty hours then you might as well get paid good for it. Got driving time Tuesday and Wednesday at 12, then only two other appointments after that and I'll have that out of my way. I want to get my license and car as soon as possible, and I will probably get my license on the 22nd of August (if I pass my test). But I'm not so sure about a car, I'll probably have to take out a loan for the car and then pay for insurance and all that other shit, including gas, but the gas wont be bad, I don't go many places (maybe I will when I can drive though). Going to Maine from the 16th-23rd this month, that should be good, hopefully I can switch my hours this Saturday to work the morning, and then I'll be all set to go up with Colleen that day after we both get outta work. I dunno, it better be good, but I have a feeling it might not be, I just don't know, this summer better not fuckin' suck... I keep saying stuff like that but soon enough it'll be half way through, so I better enjoy it while it lasts. Held a LAN party at my house today, from 12-12, that was good, nothing spectacular. I'm really hungry right now though, I don't feel like going to sleep on an empty stomach so I think I'm gonna eat a little...
Anyways, cross-country training is supposed to start tomorrow at 8:30 in the morning. Ms. Price just emails everyone the other day saying she can't come to our practiced until August, whatever. I don't think that's an issue though, it's just dumb. I'm not gonna attend the practice tomorrow (today rather) but I'll do the Tuesday one. I wont make every practice though, and maybe like half is a number I should aim at. But the motivation wont come from trying to compete within the kids I'm practicing with, the motivation is from within. I'm doing this whole cross-country shit to get better at spring track. This summer crap is a way of me getting off my ass and improving as a runner, I'm not really looking at it as preparing for the cross-country season, although I would like to show what I have in long distance. The team will only be running Mon-Thurs, I wanna run 5 days a week at first, maybe the first two weeks, then run 5-6 days a week, maybe 7 if I feel like it at the end of the summer. The thing I also want to do even more is work out consistantly. It's dumb to do all that lifting at the end of the year and then just lose it all over the summer, I wish I had a gym in my basement, hah. I guess that's about it for now, this really turned into a rant, but what the fuck do I care? You don't have to read this, this is for me, me, me.
Anyways, cross-country training is supposed to start tomorrow at 8:30 in the morning. Ms. Price just emails everyone the other day saying she can't come to our practiced until August, whatever. I don't think that's an issue though, it's just dumb. I'm not gonna attend the practice tomorrow (today rather) but I'll do the Tuesday one. I wont make every practice though, and maybe like half is a number I should aim at. But the motivation wont come from trying to compete within the kids I'm practicing with, the motivation is from within. I'm doing this whole cross-country shit to get better at spring track. This summer crap is a way of me getting off my ass and improving as a runner, I'm not really looking at it as preparing for the cross-country season, although I would like to show what I have in long distance. The team will only be running Mon-Thurs, I wanna run 5 days a week at first, maybe the first two weeks, then run 5-6 days a week, maybe 7 if I feel like it at the end of the summer. The thing I also want to do even more is work out consistantly. It's dumb to do all that lifting at the end of the year and then just lose it all over the summer, I wish I had a gym in my basement, hah. I guess that's about it for now, this really turned into a rant, but what the fuck do I care? You don't have to read this, this is for me, me, me.