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its been a while since i was really excited just about life, about whats going to happen next and what i want to do. i had an epiphany, more like a revelation, something that use to happen a lot to change my view of things in high school, last week when i went to see my cousin in dc. she has a kick ass apartment by the way (as small as it may be). anyway....it made me happy to realize that good things really do come to good people, it just takes a little longer. patience is the key, something that i am still working on. my cousin was talking about her new latin lover that she stumbled upon after moving out of her old town house for reasons i wont mention. and she was telling us about how romantic he is and how he would send her roses every week and how he saw christmas pictures and told her how beautiful her whole family was. i just was so amazed and so estatic for her because she really deserves this, after all that shes been through, shes such a damn cool person. so anyway i noticed that good things come in good time. something i knew but never really took into consideration until then. its like being told not to speed cos you will get a ticket but you speed anyway and its not until you get the ticket that you remember being told not to speed, only not as negative as that example. little things like that just click and everything makes sense for a minute and just seems to flow. it gives me hope and makes me excited for what ever comes my way, cos in the end i know its happening for a reason and leading the way to something great.
on another note. im so damn fickle. ive been to college for a semester and already im changing my major but not only that im thinking about changing my major to something else. figuring out what i want to do is a pain in the ass and as patient as i want to be, i know i cant be now becuase i dont want to waste my time at college because that means wasting my parents money. my mom says i just set my standards too high and refuse to settle for less. in that sense i know what i want in life, now i just have to figure out what i want to do.
on another note. im so damn fickle. ive been to college for a semester and already im changing my major but not only that im thinking about changing my major to something else. figuring out what i want to do is a pain in the ass and as patient as i want to be, i know i cant be now becuase i dont want to waste my time at college because that means wasting my parents money. my mom says i just set my standards too high and refuse to settle for less. in that sense i know what i want in life, now i just have to figure out what i want to do.