i have to get this out
so i come home and not even two days later i feel like everyone is trying to open up old wounds and make me feel insecure and weird and awkward. and as i was telling laura, i dont like awkward, ive had my share of awkward. i am awkward so i dont need the world to be it. gooooood god. if there is one. i like change and i like to have new things and i feel uncomfortable when certain things are exactly the same as they were and im just expected to be okay with that. well IM NOT. i know im being really broad but i cant use names and situations unless im talking to someone directly. avoidance of so called drama, you have to look out for that in the burg.